It's Destiny

Chapter 17: No Way

Natsuki's POV:

   Yuri was full of it! Full of what you ask? Full of bullshit! Oh I scraped my arm on the way down the hill. If that was true why didn't she let me look at the wound. Yeah because she inflicted it upon herself. I was so angry and sad and worried. I was just a hot ball of messed up emotions!!! Gah her and her covering up her feelings when she thinks no one will care.

   I sighed slumping onto the couch moodily. Now she was locked up in the bathroom doing who knows what.  I shouldn't care, I know I shouldn't, but even if she broke my heart I still want her. That confession makes me feel even more depressed.

  "Hey Natsuki you don't think Yuri...well that she.." Monika trailed off as she sat next to me looking deep in thought.
   "Did this to herself?" I whisper and Monika let's out a sad sigh.
    "Well...yeah.." she admits and I shake my head feeling miserable, because it's even worse than before, before I was her Suki and she actually cared what I thought and if I was happy. Now all I could do was sit back and watch as she unraveled. I didn't like it one bit.

   "Yeah...yeah I do." I whisper and Monika nods, retaining the new information and I contemplated if I should tell Monika that I suspected her daughter was doing the same thing. However it wasn't the time or my place. I know Yuri wouldn't have liked it if I had done that to her.

  "Alright grumpy princess it's nap time." Sayori cooed walking past us, her little girl in her arms.
   "Not tired mama" she whined half-heartedly. I couldn't help but smile at the scene. Sayori hummed in response and started stripping the four year old from her wet snow gear.
   "I know princess, but all you have to do is count to twenty and if you are still wide awake then you can come play okay." She patronized swaying slightly with the child.

    "I'mma fall sleep then... can't count to twenty." She mumbled half asleep. Monika chuckled softly as Sayori disappeared into the room with the toddler. Monika tapped my leg and ushered the boys to watch a movie before she led me to the kitchen table.
   "I'm worried for her Natsuki, I mean she's my friend, use to be my best friend and I hate seeing her doing that to herself." She whispered sadly.

  "Not your fault Moni." Sayori kissed the side of Monika's face. Her arms wrapped tightly around her neck as she peppered one side of her neck with kisses. They sure as heck didn't act like someone who wanted a divorce. Monika turned in her seat, capturing Sayori's lips in her own.

     "I know, it just makes me feel like I could've been a better friend to her." She whispered softly and I looked down at my clasped hands.
   "It's not your fault Monika, it's mine, if I had tried harder, if I hadn't just shoved her away...." Tears were escaping my eyes involuntarily and I was shaking with sobs.  Sayori and Monika both wrapped me up in a tight hug and it made me feel worse.

  "Maybe I should've just let her be with MC, at least she was happy with him." I whisper and Monika scoffed shoving my shoulder.
  "Okay you always give me tough love, well allow me to return the favor. Natsuki don't be stupid, Yuri was happiest when she was with you." Monika peristed and I shook harder. My anguish was mixing with my anger and I was a hot mess.

  "Then why did she leave me?" I whimper sounding more broken than ever before. Sayori looked at me sadly and I sniffed, rubbing my eyes.
"If she was so happy then why didn't she fight for us." I whisper sadly.

  "Natsuki I don't know...I'm so sorry...I wish I knew...but I don't..." Sayori whispered hugging me tightly. Sayori had always been like a sister to me. Sometimes annoying but always there for me if I needed her. Monika was like one of those know it all cousins who drive you up the wall but stick around to give you advice and guidance.

  "You'll figure this out." Monika promised and I smiled sadly.
  "I sure hope so." I sighed

To Be Continued...

Sorry I had to 🤗 before I dove into the deepness and angst of the next chapter