Waves at once

Chapter 24

Meaningless

"Holy Shit, Juliet" Elle gasps as she pulls me into a hug, squeezing my tighter than ever.

She's rarely ever see me like this. And when she did, she knew it was a serious matter "Is it Hunter?" The sound of his name made me cry harder immediately throwing her into a panic

"No, no, no, don't do that, breath" She says as he closes the door, inviting her inside her classically modern mansion. We move to a secluded lunge, where she dismisses everyone who's cleaning. Asking Rosie, to get us a bottle of wine and a tub of Ben and Jerry's.

"Julie, I need you to breath for two seconds and tell me what's going" She ask and I nod wiping my puffy wet eyes. I knew I looked like a train wreck. On the ride here I had managed to get a glimpse of myself in the mirror, my hair was facing all sorts of directions as it had fallen out of its perfect ponytail and my eyes were red puffy bags filled with tears.

"He didn't mean any of it" My voice is weak as I try my hardest to stop the sobs from escaping. I felt my heart breaking, ever so slowly and gracefully "He said I was the one, I was the only one- He said he was a fool for me, but he lied Ellie, he lied to me" I break down into tears  as I find, myself in her grasps again. Rosie enters again, placing everything on the table as Elle mutters a quick 'thank you' before before shooing her off.

"Oliver?" She questions gently and I nod unable to say anything else "I'm sorry love.. I'm sure you'll guys get back together"

"It's not like that this time" I shake my head, finally looking up into her hazel eyes. She had knitted her eyebrows together

"What do you mean" Those same words I said earlier

"He said he's always love me, he said he still loves me but, we both know this break up is more... permanent" I finally manage to pull myself together as I wipe my eyes siting up, attempting to have a proper conversation "And, it sucks cause... cause I thought we were getting better, I really did" I sigh looking down at the ends of my grey school jersey "But apparently we weren't" I laugh lightly. There a silence as we both sit down and think about everything.
"It's pretty shit" I laugh bitterly as I wipe away the tears that began streaming down again.

"Fuck him" She starts
"Ellie, you don't have too-"
"No, I mean it, fuck him. He can't keep doing this to you. It's like you said: It's a case of wanting what he can't have, and I'm willing to bet my Chanel glasses that sooner or later, he's gonna want you back- and Juliet, you cannot go back to him after this. You can't do that to yourself" She rants as she stands up, fixing her curly brunette hair into a messy bun.

"The thing is, I know that in a heartbeat- I'd run straight back into his arms"

"You're saying that now cause the wound is still fresh... when it heals, he's just gonna be another boy. Give it time Ju"She squeezes my shoulder " On the Brightside-"

"There's a Brightside?"

"-Fashion month is about to start and we're gonna be all over the scene having the best time of our lives, so don't worry. I mean, supermodels everywhere, all of which, would kill to get even a tiny peck from you" She teases and I laugh while I rest my hands on my cheeks "We're gonna be okay Juju, I mean look at Adam and I. We ended for the better. All he is to me is a backstabbing, narcissistic, problematic, toxic piece of shit that is no longer in my life. And I am completely unaffected by him" She smiled happily and my mouth parted slightly as I bat my lashes trying to come to terms with what she said "Like, yeah- I did come crying to you but I go over it and now I'm happy"

"But you're a lot more apathetic than me" I try and she shakes her head as the smile drops off her face quickly

"Bullshit" she cuts in

"How so?" I raise an eyebrow as I cuddle a pillow while she hands me a glass of champagne

"You just don't care" she answers bluntly "I'm mean. I'm terrible and absolutely bitchy at times-well rather most time, doesn't matter. I'm not a nice person, right?"

"right?"

"But at least I'm brutally honest and open about it. People know I don't care about anyone except , maybe like five people and I'm included in those five" And I can't help but snicker because, that' s such an Ellie thing to say.

"What does this have to do with me being apathetic?"

"People think you care about them. They think you actually enjoy spending time with them and love them to pieces. And they're wrong. Juliet, you're, implicitly, just like me. And no one sees it except for Oliver and I. That's why You don't scare me the way everyone else is scared of you" She watches me carefully and I can't help but raise my eyebrow

"That's absurd Ellie, no one scared of me" I shake my head as I take another sip of the bubbly champagne.

"Yeah, not explicitly. A lot of people are scared... or rather intimidated by you but they, themselves don't even realize it" she says as she tilts her head, waiting for me to respond

"Whatever" I shrug, not wanting to entertain this conversation "Pass the ice cream please, crying starves you out" I joke and she chuckled lightly as she hands me the tub with a spoon.

"So, the plan is that we leave next weekend for New York Cause London fashion week will be over. After New York, we'll fly to Paris where I actually want to introduce you to a few mates of mine, one who I think would be a good fuck"

"Then why don't you fuck him?"

"Not my type, but probably yours" she says and I lick the spoon, trying go listen to her itinerary plan.

But the words, just dangled in the air as my head began to space out, the idea of time and focus left me completely and I nodded carelessly.