Book Of Love

My Secret (Pt 5)

"Honey, I'm packing you a bag which I want you to take with you everywhere you go, and I mean everywhere, even if it's to the toilet." Mum handed me the leather brown backpack , smiling bravely.

I smiled back, "What's inside it?"

"A bag of tissues for your blood noses, medicines for your headaches, a jacket for your chills, spare food if you get hungry, an asthma puffer  if you struggle to breath and a cellphone if your in trouble."

She held her arms open and I hugged her tightly "I love you so frickin much."

"I love you more, now go have fun but be careful." She waved  goodbye.

Before I exited the door, Kadence runs up behind me and pulls me into a hug, "Come home okay?" I nod. I hoped I could.

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"This is Hogwarts restaurant?" I ask curiously staring at a large building decorated with painted wood of all colours. The place was buzzing with noise and I started to worry that it would be too busy for me.

"Yeah, too cliche?" Elysa pulls a face, lifting her mouth at an angle. "No, it's perfect." I put a hand on her neck, whispering into her ear. She giggles, but I frown, I'm going to miss her the most.

She takes me inside, we receive stares from people but we shrug them off. Someone stops me at the door, looking at my backpack "Excuse me sir, can I ask you to leave your backpack at front counter please?"

"I need it sir." I glance at Elysa, then back at the manager. "I have leukaemia ,"  I whisper. His eyes widen, "By all means sir, keep it with you."

"How did you get past him?" Elysa pulls my arm towards her hugging it before we sit down at a table. "It's just my good looks." I smirk, hoping she buys it.

"You're stupid you know." She laughs and I knew she was joking.

"Hi can I take your order?" A waiter stands, pen and notebook ready to take our order. I stare at Elysa and she shrugs "Can we get the fried eggs, with bacon and toast on the side." 

"Two of those?" The waiter asks. When we nod, he walks away. I groan, my stomach started to pain. "You okay?" Elysa tilts her head.

"Breakfast is served." Our eyes widen as we see the waiter, with our food already made. He places it onto our table.

He leaves and my mouth stays open "How did they do it so quickly?" "It's a miracle." Elysa rubs her hands together, picking up her fork and knife. I pick up my fork and knife, ready to dig in but I don't feel hungry at all.

"This is really good." Elysa mumbles, covering her mouth as she chews the food. I force a piece of bacon into my mouth "Mhm, very nice."

By the time Elysa had finished her whole plate, I had only just finished my bacon and was onto my eggs. I started picking at the eggs, feeling sick to the stomach. "Are you sure your okay?"

"I'm not hungry, and I feel sick." I clutched my stomach, grabbed my backpack and sprinted towards the toilets, smashing open the stall door, I kneel by the toilet and vomit.

I tremble, eyes wide, as I notice that my vomit, is blood. I just vomited out, about a 200ML can of blood from INSIDE my body.

"Listen Wesley if you're sick, you can tell me." Elysa stood outside the toilets but I could hear her clearly. " I won't try to be overprotective or anything."

I flush the toilet, and swing the backpack over my shoulder, smiling as I headed outside back into the restaurant, "I'll pay, let's go for a walk."

Outside the wind, blew hard, causing me to shiver. I sat down onto the grass and stared out at the river and the city across it. I got the jacket from my bag, and got it out but I realised that Elysa was shivering so I put it around her.

Why keep myself warm, if I'm to die soon.

She stared up at me smiling. I put an arm around her shoulder, and waist so that we were sharing body heat to keep us warm. She put an arm across my back, and I sighed.

"Hey El." I whispered, looking down onto her. "Yeah?" she whispered looking up at me, I leant in closer to her, wanting to kiss her but she looked away sighing. "

"Something wrong?" I asked.

"Don't get me wrong, I love you but this reminds me of the day I was out with my other boyfriend- Anakin it was the last time I saw him before he passed away. I don't want to kiss you and then something bad happens." She looks down, she's sad.

Does she know?! She can't.  "How did he die?" I ask. "He had leukaemia, and he never told me until before he was dead." She held my hand and squeezed it.

Sounds like me.

"My dad died of cancer, he was a good man." I scoffed staring out at the city. "Many people who we love, can easily just die." Elysa shook her head sadly.

We stared at the city lights flashing brightly, she must know that I have cancer. She would never act like this otherwise. I plant a kiss on her head. So soft.

I clicked my tongue "Well I guess we better go to school, I'll drive us."

"Let's make this day count." She winked at me, licking her lips and this movement made me stumble but I straightened myself.

Elysa Mandora what are you doing to me...

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