Book Of Love

My Secret (Pt 6)

"Don't tell me what to do, you squirm." Britney chased a nerd towards the computer lab, close on his heel, "I tell you what to do nerd face."

"Britney seriously?!" I yell after her, keeping El close behind me. "Oh hey Wes, and short stuff, how are you guys?" She puts on the biggest fakest smile I had ever seen her pull. "Did you guys hear about it, someone in our school has cancer."

Shit. How the fuck does she know about that. No- one knows. I felt El shift beside me, maybe she does know?

"Maybe you should leave whoever that is, alone." El pipes up. "I hate it when midgets talk to me, boys." She sings, and I become more alert as two muscular looking guys surround me and El.

"Deal with short stuff, but leave Wes to me." She raises an eyebrow at me, sneering. I hear El wimper as the guys muffle a hand around her mouth. Her eyes widen, and she begins kicking and trying to scream.

I place two hands on one of the guys shoulder, pulling him backwards so that he slams onto the ground, and hard. He scrambles up, but immediately limps away.

The other guy punches me straight in the nose, and I swear under my breath clutching my nose, knowing what was about to happen. I tried to walk away but he pulled me to the ground and began kicking me several times.

I curled up into a ball, shivering. My head throbbed so loudly, all I heard was high pitched screams, and squeals. My stomach threatened to blow and I felt dizzy, even weak. My breathing started to play up again, and I was struggling for my breath. I knew I would highly at this point in time.

"Would you bastards, stay the fuck away from my boyfriend." I opened an eye, to see Elysa knee the guy in the balls, and I felt his pain.

The worst but best place to hit a guy. Clever.

El took me underneath my shoulders, lifting me up she dragged me gently along the ground. I peeked out, seeing blood all down my shirt, I could taste it in my mouth. My nose was still bleeding.

The world faded from my view, and I was no longer in El's arms.

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I was infact AGAIN in a hospital bed, surrounded by mum, Kadence and El. "Oh honey, you are so done with school, that school just causes trouble." Mum rubs my hair, and I smirk as Kadence talks quietly to El.

El leaves blowing a kiss to me, I frown. Where is she going? Kadence sits beside me, "Wes you need to tell her, before it's too late."

I nod, she was right. She's my girlfriend and what she's been through with Anakin has been enough already.

Today sure was a bloody mess, but I was glad it would all be over soon.

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It was scary, knowing I only have 24 hours to live. I had so much to do, so much to tell people and not enough time.

12 hours was devoted to being with my family and the rest to Elysa. This day will go down in history.

"I can't believe it, your last day." Kadence sobbed, but I pulled her mouth into a smile, "Smile Kadence because crying will change nothing."

"You're such an ass." She elbowed me, but I grabbed her arm, "No hitting me okay." I laughed, cuddling her into my arms.

"It hurts." I fake sob, we laugh.

"Dad would have been so proud of you." Kadence smiled.

"He would have been proud of us, he is." I stared at the ceiling, blinking several times.

"Wes, how much pain were you in?" Kadence stared at me. "A lot, Kadence it was almost unbearable."

"So you wanted to die?" Kadence asked. I shook my head, "I care too much about you guys."

"Even if I'm on the verge of dieing, I wouldn't want to. I know how much it would break your heart to see me go."

She squeezed my hand, "And I care about you. I don't want you going through anymore pain, so in a way, this is for the best." She was right, I was in a lot of pain.

It pains for other people to see me in pain, it hurts them to see me suffering. I don't want that anymore. I want the best for everyone else.

Including myself.

"Wonder why cancer chose our family." I smiled at her.

"Well," Kadence hugged me tightly crying, "what do we always say?"

I grinned, and Kadence grinned, "Cancers a bitch." we said in unison, crying whilst laughing, this would always be remembered. "I love you Kadence."

"I love you more idiot." She released me as I headed upstairs to say my farewell's to mum.

She exited her room, face soaked in tears, lip trembling. I pulled her into a hug, reaching behind her for the photo frame. I showed it to her and she smiled.

"I will not be gone mum, I will always be here in your heart," I lightly touched her chest, " and here." I pointed at the photo.

No matter where you go Wes, you will always be here, in the centre of my heart. Dad used to always say that.

"As long as I know that my baby boy will be free of this suffering, and will be in a good place with your father." She rubs my arm.

"God will take care of me, he took care of dad, and now it's my turn to live my life with him." I held onto her hands rubbing a thumb along the top of her hand. "God is always here, no matter what happens." Mum smiles one last time pulling me into a hug.

"I love you mum." "I love you so much." She cries softly, watching as I left. Tears filled my eyes and poured down my face.

It's time to say my final goodbye.

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