Book Of Love

My Secret (Pt 7)

I had less than 12 hours left, so I decided to take Elysa to a special place. I took her to the last place, my father and I were at.

If you ever feel alone, scared, in pain come here and I'll be here always. I'm never going to leave your side ever. Is what he had said.

It was a cabin, in the middle of the woods, where we would be alone.

"What's with your sudden change of attitude? What is this place?" Elysa furrowed her eyebrows looking at me with suspicion.

"I wanted to spend the last of what I have left with you. This is the place where me and father hanged out before he died." I sigh, it's time to tell her Wes.

"Last of your time? Oh my gosh, Wesley do you have cancer?" I winced at the way she said it and I nodded. She pulled me into a hug "Leukaemia?"

"I thought so, all the symptoms told me, and then you told me about your dad and I knew it had to be genes. Why didn't you tell me?"

"I didn't want you to go all overprotective, plus you already had to deal with losing Anakin and I didn't want a relationship because I couldn't bear to see you pain, just to see me die." A tear strolled down my cheek, and she sobbed.

"That's so nice of you, but so stupid. Next time you tell me okay?" She slapped me playfully.

"There won't be a next time." I shook my head slowly.

She twisted her body around so that she was facing me, she leaned in towards me and kissed me on the lips. She put her arms around my neck, I put my arms around her waist, kissing her back.

This is what I wanted to do, before I died. If you can't stop dieing, make it a happy death. Then you'll know that you at least lived your life.

She pulled back, smiling, before breaking out and crying. I pulled her into a hug, crying with her, with a hand in her hair, I quietly hummed.

"Sing for me." She whispered into my ear, making my hairs stand on end. Suddenly this felt like deja vu.

Quietly I sang her a song, she joined in and it was the sweetest duet ever. "We'll live together forever in harmony." We ended at the same time. I leaned in and kissed her again, I don't know how much time I have left but this is the best.

I grunted, feeling a sudden pain in my heart, my head throbbed violently, bruises covered every inch of my body and I started shaking quickly. "I'm so cold."

"It's time." El stood up, and grabbed a blanket, from the shelf and a wooden box full of knives?

Time for what?

"It hurts so much El," I grunt, but she holds my hand tightly and kisses me once more on the lips. This calms me down, a bit but the pain was so much I couldn't handle it.

From the corner of my eye, I saw the glint of a knife, my eyes widened, I turned to look at El who was holding the knife in front of her.

"El what the hell are you doing." I whispered. "I'm killing myself." She held the knife in front of her stomach, ready to move.

"Why You have a perfect life that you can still live." I tried to take it from her but she shook her head.

"Because you make my life perfect Wes."

"You said you wanted to be with me forever and I feel the same way Wes. This way, I know we can be together, always and no one will be in pain, ever again." El sobbed.

She was an angel, I couldn't let her end her life because of me.

"I want to be with you El, but not this way. Please go live your life."

"Wes, this is what I want." El grunted.

"I'm doing it with you, give me one." I took a knife from the box, holding it by my stomach too.

"El please back out, please I don't want you to die."

This is like double suicide.

"And I don't want you to die Wesley. You think I'm going to just sit here and watch you die. I would rather kill myself then to lose you." She smiled, looking me in my eyes.

I grunted, this is what it feels like to die.

"El-"

She put a finger to my lip, "Wes just shut up, I love you okay." A tear streamed down my cheek "I love you too." I placed my hand onto the handle of her knife and she placed her hand on the handle of mine.

"Together." I nodded, I watched as we stabbed the knives though our flesh, like we meant nothing to the world. I could see the blood, leaking out of our bodies.

We cuddled up, sharing breaths, secretly hoping to see each other for a little longer. El squeezed my hand, her eyes threatening to close, "Wes remember the coffee incident?" I nodded.

How could I forget.

"The day you did that Wes, I fell for you, I knew you were the one. Your my Wesley Lemonia always and forever."

I rubbed her hand, "Well I was drooling when I saw you believe it or not, I knew you were her, the one I wanted. If I asked you to marry me, would you be mine Elysa."

"Yes, I'm already yours."

She closed her eyes, breathing her last breath, I kissed her pale face, resting my head on her chest, my eyes slowly closed, causing a black swirl, to take over.

See you soon El, see you soon.

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