Felicidade

28. She's my home...

I can hear someone sobbing painfully. I feel a hand on my chest. Is that you, Mom??? It feels like your touch. I try to open my eyes but my vision is still blurry and it's very painful.

I can hear Ridhi's voice.

"Jin...Jin...can you see me? Jin, are you ok???" She is crying terribly. I can sense that.

"I.. I... I'm fine... don't cry...Ridhi ..." I try to speak.

She literally throws herself on me and starts crying more.

"Ah..It's hurting... Ridhi .. Don't cry..."

"Stop it. You fool. I know it's hurting. And I'm not letting you go again. Let me hold you please. Don't say anything... don't fight me..."

What should I do? Should I forget my pain? This girl here has no idea what she is doing to me now. Gosh! I'm a man even though I'm in pain!! She should stop being such sensitive to anybody else.

I try to sit up from the bed even though I don't want to. I want to fall asleep here right now. I don't have the strength to get up.

Have you ever seen a man who asks for comfort through the pain? Right now I feel like I needed this pain to finally understand where my comfort lies. This girl, who is crying like anything seeing me in pain is the greatest gift that I could ever get. Getting the privilege to hold someone's hands knowing that the hand will always be there, how many people get that? I don't have the courage to deny that gift. I don't care whatever my future holds. I'm ready to face everything if these hands always holds me like this in my pains.

I sit up after much effort. Ridhi finally lifts her head from my chest and looks at me with an enormous painful gaze. There are questions in those eyes. There are worries for me. That gaze is trying to read my thoughts to get an assurance that I'm really fine.

I want to assure her now. I want to let her know that I have surrendered to her love. She has won over me.

I suddenly pull her towards me and hug her as tightly as I can. I can feel her heart beats getting fast. I can feel the growing ups and downs of her breathing. Yes, I know that it is for me and none else. She is so shocked that she has forgotten to respond back. I grab the nape of her neck and pull her head back. I sniff her hair to get the smell that I really wanted. She smells of lavender. That smell makes me forget my pains.

"Jin...wait... what're you doing!!! Jin..." She tries to resist softly.

"Ridhi . I have ignored you for 3 months. I won't now. Not anymore. I want to protect you now. With all that I have." I kiss her hair.

"Wait...wait...what?? What're you even saying? What ignoring?" She murmurs almost inaudibly while trying to push me back in vain.

"Stop talking. Stop resisting."

"Okay."

"May I kiss you? I want to kiss you."

"Do you really need to do it?"

"Yes I do. I need it. Badly."

"Mmm...ummm...okay." she sighs.

I put my hand on her waist and pull her closer to me. She closes her eyes and lowers her head. Right now I want to forget about everything else. I can only see her in front of me. I want to surrender to the affection that I have resisted for so long.

She's soft. Like flower petals. Her lips are shaking and I can hear her deep breaths.

I keep staring at her face. She has a really cute nose. Her eyelashes are pretty big. I run my thumb on her lips. She parts her lips and takes a deep breath.

I hold her chin. Pulling her face closer I plant a kiss on her forehead. Her grip becomes tighter on my shoulders. Her breathing deepens. I tug her hair back and plant trails of kisses along her neck and jawline. A soft moan comes out of her mouth. I can't even describe how much I like that. It's like the best song that I have ever heard.

Her scent is driving me insane. She is trembling like leaves under my restless kisses.

I can't get enough of how she is responding to each of my touches.

I kiss her passionately. I want to suck out all the innocence that her lips hold.

"Mmm...Jin..the door... Jin...stop..."

"I don't care."

"Please... Jin..."

"Don't talk..."

"Ahh..."

I flip her over on the bed and come on her top. She looks at me with utter disbelief in her eyes.

"Weren't you hurt?"

"I was. You've healed me." I say looking at her eyes. I see her expression changing under my intense gaze. It's beautifully shy.

She blushes so shyly that my heart skips a beat.

She slides her left arm on my shoulder and the fingers of her right hand through my hair. She pulls my head closer to her neck and whispers under her breath.

"Kiss me Jin. You can have me."

I know now that how desperately she wanted me. I don't have any fear now. I know she is mine. I start kissing her madly.

"Guyssss!!!! At least close the door! For fuck's sake!!!"

Diya pulls the door close from outside.

"Crap!!"

"It's okay."

"I'm flustered now."

"You should be. You look good when shy."

"Ummmm...mmmm....okay..."

I immerse myself in her scent. I want to forget the rest of the world for the rest of the night.

Media, scandals, reports, meetings, Kai...you all may go to hell now. I have got my heaven for today...