Tell me when it's not okay
I have problems and I have my faults
I'm messed up and hurting
But you don't care you said let me in
I warned you that it's too much for you
I warned you that I'll drag you down too
The last time I opened up I scared them away
I was too much and they left me with new scars to add to the pain of being me every day
Tell me when I trigger you
I close my feeling up so they dont affect others
I hide them, push them down to where no one will ever find them
If I act fine no one will know and I can't hurt you
I can see that I make you worry unnecessarily
I'm not worth the trouble and pain to fix
I will hold back, I will self control
I'll hide them push them even deeper so they'll never hurt you like they hurt me
I'll act normal, I'll be happy for you
I'm okay and the look of pain is just because I'm tired
The twitches are just me being hyper
The blank stare is me just think of things
The cuts are just because I fell
The voices are just myself trying to scream for help
The blood that runs is better than the tears and the way I feel about myself
But I'll hide all that, I'll self control
Tell me when I trigger you
I will hold back, I will self control if I'm hurting you along with me.
Tell me when it's not okay
Tell me when I trigger you
I will hold it back, I will self control
If im hurting you along with me.
~Rose 2018
