How do I even compare? I'm a mess. Shes strong and beautiful. She can hold her own and is beyond confident. I wish I was her. I envy her problems because I know I don't have to worry about losing you. I could never lose you if I was her. And yet here I am. Watching you as you slowly are being pulled from my grasp I thought could hold you close to me for ever.
How do I even compare? She can help you better. She is calm and collected. Her poise is elegant but with strength. I panic and cant breathe around you. Im worried of saying something wrong and hurting you but she is too perfect to do anything like that.
How do I even compare? Shes everything I wish I was and she's everything you want. You love me and I trust you when you say it I truly do. However, I dont trust myself when I say you're going to be mine forever. I bet she won't have to think that. I bet she wont have to worry that she'll say something wrong. That everything she does has the chance of making you turn away from her. No. Shes eveything you want and need and I'm just keeping you away from her. Not that I'm the problem, not that I said things wrong. Not that I messed up. No the problem is me and I'm stopping you from being happy with her. I'm sorry and you say it's not my fault. And that might be true but how do I even compare? I don't. I can't. I never did and I will never come close.
~Rose 2018