Depression and anxiety should not be mixed up. But in reality they are quite similar. The difference being that depression has reason where insanity lacks them. But with the gun pointed at my head with my finger around the trigger am I depressed or insane? If I pull the trigger the people who knew me will say depression but the people who loved me will say insanity. For the ones I knew would only see that I was suffering. But to the ones I loved knew it was because I could never be enough for them.
So insanity has reasons and depression has none. And if I dont pull the trigger people and put it down people will see me and ask what drove me to that point. And the ones who knew me will say it was insanity and the ones who loved me will say depression. Because if you know me then you'd see im trying desperately to find a reason to stay. And if you loved my then you know I couldn't find one.
So insanity and depression are the same. You need a reason for both but the reason can be each other. Im insane because of my depression and depressed because of my insanity. So instead of pulling the trigger I turn and hand it to you. Because if you truly loved and knew me you'd know what to do.
~ Rose 2018
