I put all my cards down and I pushed all my chips in. Everything was placed on black and just like Russian roulette with a single bullet loaded filled with black powder I pulled the trigger and I only see red. I did this to myself and I knew the risks. I lost eveything and I cant recover. I'm damned to live from nightmare to nightmare and the only comfort I feel now is the blank state of the gun barrel as I stare it down, because I know it will judge me accordingly.
~Rose 2018
