When does a like become an obsession? Is it when the thoughts creep into my everyday routine? Is it when I start to put off things for something? Or is it when my life grinds to a halt when ever you walk into the room?
Am I obsessed then?
Is it then when my heart gets caught in my throat just by looking at you. Then when you smiles and say hello time seems to grind to a halt.
Then am I obsessed?
When my dreams are filled with you. When my thought every morning is you.
Then am I obsessed?
Is it when I'll do things I would never think of doing just to be with you. Or maybe it's when I realized that your thoughts aren't the the same as mine. When my dreams turn to now nightmares. Screaming at me. Taunting me with hopes and fantasies know will never be true. When my tears turn to bitterness and lust for the things I can't have.
Then am I obsessed?
When I literally am disgusted with myself for still having hope that one day those lips that kiss yours will be mine one. When the lips that kiss mine are only empty feelings of desperate crys for you? I think im obsessed. I'm just obsessed with a nightmare where I will never wake up.
I'm obsessed with you.
This feeling won't go away. You will be the death of me I swear it.
I am obsessed.
~ Rose 2018
