I am selfishly selfless. Does that mean I'm good?
I live to make others feel good only to look good. Does that mean I'm good?
I make people laugh and smile. Change their world, but only because I want to feel like I did something. Does that mean I'm good?
I've helped people come back from the brink of suicide. I've talked them down and made them choose life. Not because I thought it was the right thing but because I desperately need someone to do the same for me. Does that mean I'm good?
I've dried tears off friends cheeks and hugged shaking bodies. Not because I'm loving but because I want them to thank me and think I'm a good friend. Does this mean I'm good?
I do all these things for myself. My actions aren't a response to their pain but my constant need for validation as a human who has emotions. Someone who needs attention to feel loved and someone who can't ever love themselves so they prey on others who are less fortunate then them to make them feel alive.
Am I a good person?
Rose 2019
