I-A-D-O-R-E-Y-O-U ✦ Grayson Dolan

22-Sin

"Two households, both alike in dignity
In fair Verona, where we lay our scene
From ancient grudge break to new mutiny
Where civil blood makes civil hands unclean
From forth the fatal loins of these two foes
A pair of star-cross'd lovers take their life;
Whose misadventured piteous overthrows
Do with their death bury their parents' strife
The fearful passage of their death-mark'd love
And the continuance of their parents' rage
Which, but their children's end, nought could remove
Is now the two hours' traffic of our stage
The which if you with patient ears attend
What here shall miss, our toil shall strive to mend."
-The Prologue,Halsey

"Okay, baby push!" Jack yells and I lose circulation in my hand.

A beautiful sound is released. A smile takes over my face.

Tears pour out of Emma's eyes.

She basically snatched the baby out of the doctor's arms, imbecile cord and all. The blood smears all over her but she didn't care.

She was holding the most perfect and important thing in her life.

I remember that feeling. Having your life change in front of your eyes. When the baby is born it's like this whole new life comes over you.

Then there is only one this your eyes are focused on. Well for some people.

Grayson didn't seem to be blessed with that kind of mother.

"It's a boy!" It was announced.

I've turned into waterworks looking at my nephew.

I turn my head to see jack in a state of shock.

"I have a son." He lets a tear slip. That was the first time I've seen Jack cry.

I walk over to the washing station seeing my nephew being cleaned off.

"Hey, bud I'm gonna be you're favorite," I say taking my blue mask off.

I glance over at Emma and Jack, she was crying and his head was in the pit of her neck crying as well.

It warmed my heart seeing such a loving couple.

The nurse puts the baby boy in a blue blanket and a blue hat for his little head.

A tear slips from my eye watching her give the new baby to his mother. Emma's face completely shifted into the biggest smile in the world.

"You're perfect." She whispered into his ear.

Jack was in bliss watching his family.

I walk over to the new bound family.

"So what's his name?" I ask them.

"I was thinking David Johnson Gilinsky after my dad." Jack chokes up. One of the saddest stories in the world in Jacks parents.

I try not to show him pity and walk over to his side of the bed kissing his cheek.

"I bet he'd love it." I whispered.

Emma didn't even look up to anyone her eyes awed at David.

"I love you so much." She laughs and cries at the baby.

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I hold David looking down at his green eyes. Emma definitely dominated in his looks even though his hair is brown his eyes and cheek look just like her. He has the same glow to his green eyes as her.

Emma was passed out on the bed and Jack stepped out of the room to talk to Grayson.

"I have seen your cousins in a while but I'm hoping to see them soon, you'd love my baby boy. His name is Landon and he looks just like me. Then you have your other two cousins,Violet and Ellie. They are my two beautiful flowers." I tell him.

I know he doesn't know what I'm saying but I like to think he does.

He was so perfect I wanted to have another one. Kids are my weakness.

Grayson walks into the room. "Hey baby where's Jack?".

"He went to go get food." He replied kissing my forehead.

"You want another one don't you." He whispered.

"No." I laugh.

"I do." He says.

"Grayson we've been through this its very rare for me to get pregnant again and I can't go through that pain or take care of that many kids," I tell him quietly.

"Baby we will figure it out,we always do." He tells me.

Grayson and I talked about kids after my incident with the twins. My doctor said we can't tell if it's dangerous for me to carry again until I try. Grayson really wants more kids. He's always wanted a big family.

"Okay Grayson I'll make a deal with you." I tell him.

"I will give you a month,no until the twins birthday to impregnate me and I won't make you wear protection or take the pill." I say kissing David's head.

"I'll take that deal." He smirks.

"Hey,no sexual tension with the baby in the room or my best friend." I say hitting him.

The door opens and a small brunette smiles at the little life I have in my hands.

"Oh my god my first nephew." Lea smiles walking over to David and me.

"Oh he looks just like Jack."She cries.

"Oh Nova I've missed you." She says giving me a little hug careful to avoid the baby.

"Can I hold him?"Lea asks holding her hands out.

"Of course." I smile and give him to her.

"And I've missed you too." It's crazy to think it been a year without my best friend. She moved out a while ago and we haven't talked since.

Not that I didn't want to everything just stressed me out.

Grayson comes over and kisses my head holding me.

I really do want another kid but I'm afraid. I don't want to hurt him if I can't.

I'm afraid I just made the worst deal ever.

If I don't get pregnant It will crush him.

One thing I've never told him and I'm too afraid to.

Its 85% proven I can't have kids anymore and if I did I will suffer a miscarriage.

I can't put myself or him through that. Especially the baby, I'd never just want to kill an innocent baby.

I'm trapped and I don't know what to do or say. Again.