zentropy | mileven.

¹²⁾ the end

[A/N: this ain't the last chapter it's a song by the beatles just letting you know lol]

[3RD PERSON POV.]

❝ and in the end, the love you take, is equal to the love you make ! ❞

━ CHAPTER TWELVE.

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JANE IVES wakes up that morning with the thought that she can be finally happy.

images and flashes of the night prior beams through her brain as she covers her messy head with her covers, the sunlight of the early morning poking through the fabric. she stares at the blank sheets with a smile on her face as she can still feel the ghost of mike wheeler's lips on her own.

yet, her head still pounds with the thought:
why did I leave so quickly?

for one, she was still angry. it happened so fast that she didn't have time to realize what was going on. but she was also scared. scared at her emotions, of all her thoughts being crammed into one moment of weakness. scared that the world as she knew it would change forever.

she knew. she knew with all of her being how she felt.

yet, the fact that he kissed her- he kissed her.
it proved everything that she thought she was just making up in her head.
she thought it was all a romanticization, thinking that he could feel the same way. a sliver of hope that would never come true. a useless wish on every fallen eyelash, every coin tossed into the fountain, every birthday candle.
but last night, she realized she was right all along. mike wheeler loved her back.
he's just starting to realize it.

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MIKE WHEELER wakes up that morning with the thought that today would be the most difficult day of his life.

he curses his decision of kissing jane with a sharp exhale out of his nose as he rolls around in bed, wondering just how he would word his message.

why did he have to go and ruin his friendship by letting some dumb impulse get in the way?

he sits upright and runs his long fingers through his mane of ebony curls, aching with guilt and frustration.
last night was one of those nights. the ones you never forget.
he thought he had it all figured out- he thought it was all done with and resolved. max wanted him back. she thought that they should be together.

and then jane had to come and ruin all of that.
because she loved him.

she loved him. jane loved him.
the thought echoed throughout his mind, and images of her smile and then her tears came flickering through his vision, dancing around the top of his head. the feeling of her soft lips lingered, and all he could do was shake the sensation away. why couldn't she just have kept her mouth shut? why'd she have to go and mess everything up?

he didn't know. he had no idea what he was feeling.

but he had made a decision. a clear decision that he would have to carry through in order to finally rid of the mess that clouded his mind. the mess that lay in front of him that prevented him from being with max. because that's what he really wanted.

right?

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PHONE CALL TRANSCRIPTION
START : 11:30 AM | END:  11:56 AM
CALLER: MICHAEL WHEELER
RECEIVER: JANE IVES

(dial tone)
hello?
hey. are you free to talk right now?
I mean, I guess. what is it ?
jane, I just- we need to talk.
about?
you're not that dumb, I know that much.
yeah.
yeah. listen, just, can I just say-
yeah?
just say that I didn't- I didn't mean to do that last night. it was...wrong. it was stupid. it was out of anger. I think.
oh.
yeah.
yeah. is that all?
no.
o-okay.
so...
so?
you're still in love with me?
I mean, um, you already kind of know the answer, don't you?
ok, well you don't want to like me that way do you?
I honestly don't know anymore. I guess I'm just trying not to think about it.
okay.
why are you talking to me about this?
would-would it be easier if we just stopped talking?
(silence)
are you saying you want to stop talking to me?
(silence)
would that be easier for you?
I- I doubt that would help. during the time we weren't f-friends I didn't like you any less.
it's just if we stay friends you're probably always gonna be hung up on me.
this might just be my subconscious defending myself or something but that's not really the case.
how so?
(silence)
my question is do you want to be friends with me?
I just don't really know how to say this without making it sound like i'm self absorbed in this situation, but i'm really saying this having you in mind.
just be honest with me. there's no point in having a filter now.
well I just think that if we kinda just stopped talking, you would eventually get over me.
(silence)
I just don't want to be the one basically playing with your emotions.
is this what you want? stop making excuses because I'm gonna look so fucking stupid trying to defend our friendship right now.
I just don't really think we should be friends.
(silence)
can you tell me why in all honesty?
everything is messy. everything makes me confused and frustrated and stressed and I don't want that.
is it because I told you how I felt?
no.
I didn't kiss you, you know. you did that all by your fucking self.
I know.
I don't get it. I don't get you.
people are different, I guess.
(silence)
are- are you crying?
you hurt me so much, you know?
come on, don't do that.
fuck you. do you know how much it's hurt all this time to see you with her?
I know- I'm sorry, I just-
just what?
I just want to be with her.
you realize she doesn't give a fuck about you, right?
don't. I don't need to hear that right now.
I bet you never even cared about my feelings. you never cared about me.
that's not true!
oh, really?
I cared-care about you a lot. and-and I'll probably miss you too after this.
I hate you.
don't you feel the least bit better? like at least a little weight is taken off your shoulders?
no.
(silence)
do you?
um. yes?
you're right. people are different.
are you gonna be okay?
you're right. we shouldn't talk anymore.
jane, I-
(dial tone)

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hi everyone!! I tried to be creative with the formatting lol idk if it works well or not but yeah. this chapter pretty much sucks but whatever. this whole transcription was completely based off a real conversation. who wants to see screenshots of the real thing lmao 😂

this was quite short but I tried out the 3rd perspective thing haha lemme know what you think of it vs my usual alternating 1st POV!!
again didn't check over grammar but enjoy.

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