aku perawan tua, renta nanti
harus daftar rumah jompo sendiri
'makanya punya suami'
aku ingin menumpah cinta
merintis utopia mewaris cita
'makanya punya bayi'
belahan jiwa untuk menghalau sepi
buah hati buat menebus kegagalan diri
dunia berputar berputar putar
di tengahnya aku, matahari
30/12/18
i'm honestly pretty aware of my own selfish desires and sometimes they scared me. but are our loved ones better off without our convoluted existence or should we just embrace our greed since we're all just walking balls of flaws anyway? is it okay to forgive ourselves? sampai batas mana? this will always be my never ending source of cognitive dissonance tbh. sigh uban-ubanku
