Did I want to get out of my room,or worst my house? No.
I wanted to stay in my happy spot.No people,no judgement,no pain.only me,myself and I with my books,my sadness and the online world.
Closed world,open wounds.
Mrs.mom told me to hurry up,mr.dad was comming and we were going to the mall,on the other side of the bridge.I love bridges.maybe because i smell death by drowning around them and my wrists itch.because I feel alive.
Open world,closed wounds.
We arrived.I frown.mr.dad wants to take my sister to the park and I,I want to go home.as we get inside the palace-looking mall mrs.mom says we should eat first.sigh.she told me to eat before we went there.sigh.I did.sigh.I shouldn't.breathe.but I did.
We ordered food and I ate nothing.I ate 4 cookies and I was not hungry.I didnt want food.breathe.I did.breathe.I didn't eat.
Mr.dad ate my food and his large stomach was happy.my sister ate soup because she says she's chubby.she's 4.
I ate nothing and I felt powerful.I swear I wasnt hungry.
After lunch we walked around.
Sigh.people,judgment,pain.
I felt like a freak
People stare.I look away.I'm having an anxiety attack,mommy? I wanna cry.
Sigh.mommy is too busy looking at shinny bags to take care of her baby.
I breathe deeply and I walk.
We had to buy my sis's school material.she is finally leaving this house 10h a day.I happily enter there and look around.I wanted this book for so long.
-Mommy?
-No.
I breathe deeply and walk away.
-Daughter?
-No.
We went home.I couldnt wait till I got home,to pass the time in my room alone.
I do not feel powerful.
I feel...I am sick.
I sit.
And im in my closed room
Opening wounds.
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