KPop Imagines

V (BTS): Drunk, High and so fucking in love with you. Pt. 2

TRIGGER WARNING: This part contains mention of drugs, suicidal thoughts, and self harm.

Fucked up. Messed up. Those words were not enough to describe who you are anymore. You were way beyond the pain of hating yourself, insecurities and self-destructive behavior. You were on the edge of completely ruined, damaged, dead. You were better off dead, that's what you thought. It had been exactly 2 weeks, 5 days, 4 hours and 37 minutes since Tae Hyung gave up on you, that became the moment you gave up on everything. The piles of assignments, work, studies were long forgotten. All of them were replaced with cigarettes, getting drunk and high, and countless of red lines etched onto your skin. Almost all of the people you thought were your friends, left you, gave up on you, saying how toxic you were to them, how hard you were to handle, how much of a burden you were to them. You didn't blame them though; you couldn't even bear with yourself.

"Y/N, you good? Wanna hit another one?" Jae Yeon yelled over the loud music as she handed you another joint.

    You took it without hesitation, knowing how bad you just want to forget everything and be numb. It wasn't the first time you got high ever since everything went downfall. Cigarettes were just the beginning, ever since Tae Hyung left, you kept trying to find other ways to forget him, to not be in pain anymore.

It wasn't until you got close to Jae Yeon that you were introduced to the land of misfits. She was your angel dressed in the devil's clothing, she was there through the lowest part and helped you to get through it no matter what ways it took for you to stop crying yourself to sleep and having breakdowns in the shower. She never judged you, and understood you without you saying anything to her. That's what you loved about her. As soon as the high hits you, everything felt light and giggles kept erupting from your lips. The music became louder and soon enough, the urge for alcohol kicked in.

The night went on to be filled with smoke, drinks and good music. The world was nice to you during these moments, the pain could never touch you. Jae Yeon was there to take care of you, but for some reason, you kept needing more and more and more to the point you were uncontrollable. Everything felt so good you wouldn't even mind if you'd die right at this moment. To just leave your pain there and soon enough... Everything went black.

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The doorbell kept on ringing and echoing throughout the dorm at almost 3 a.m. A curse escaped Nam Joon's lips as he sat up on his bed and stomped his way to the front door, ready curse the living hell out of this person. The others seems to be awaken from the ringing too as they poured into the hallway.

"Aish, who the fuck is it? It better not be Yoongi's drunk dumbass or I'll castrate him myself." Jin grumbled with Hoseok trailing behind him. Nam Joon opened the door with such force that the girl in front of him stumbled in surprise.

"Who and why are you here at 3 in the morning?" Nam Joon quietly said with anger.

"Aaaa... I'm so sorry but uhhh, does Tae Hyung lives here?" The girl asked nervously.

"And who are you? Why are you here?" Hoseok questioned her as he eyed her.

"Well, uhh... I'm Jae Yeon. D-Do you guys now Y/N L/N? I couldn't find her house keys and she said that she lost it somewhere but she told me that Tae Hyung has the spare key. So, if I could get the spare key, I'll leave as soon as possible because she's... she's in a bad shape and I'm in a rush. So, please help me out here?" She sputtered it out so quickly that the boys didn't have enough time to process the whole thing but at the mention your name, their whole alarm went off.

"Y/N...? Where is she?" Nam Joon asked softly.

    Jae Yeon stepped back and pointed to you, almost lying on the floor in front of their door. As soon as he caught sight of you, he could feel his own heart breaking. Hoseok was the one to react immediately as he rushed towards you and tried to carry you into the house. Nam Joon swallowed the lump in his throat and turned back to Jae Yeon.