Inside A Lover's Mind (Criminal Minds Fanfic)

Unbearable

All I could hear was beeping. The beeping was so irritating, but there was nothing I could do about it. My body felt as if it wasn't mine, the numbness was in control of me. My brain was screaming, telling me to open my eyes.

"Hi sweetie. I don't know if you can hear me, but I'm going to talk anyway," I heard Garcia say to me.

"I'm here by myself. My Chocolate Man is at the office, doing paper work... and Reid is in the waiting room. He's been trying to come in here to see you all week, but it's been too hard for him."

She sighed, swiping her thumb along my cheek bone.

"I put your Dalek under your arm once you got out of surgery. You know, the little red one we got you for your eighth birthday? You loved it so much," she said quietly.

I felt soft pelts on my face. I assumed it was tears. I heard someone knock on the door. Garcia hiccuped and it came out as a small, sad laugh.

"Be strong, baby. Be strong," she whispered, kissing my forehead.

Slight shuffling, knowing she was moving out of the way. There was a pause in where I guessed the doorway was, then loud crying. Someone came to my side.

"Jessica?" Spencer's voice asked.

I wanted to call out for him; wanted to scream at the top of my weak lungs that I was here, that I was listening.

"I've been watching that video I took of you on Fang's birthday. You were laughing as he ate the TARDIS cake you made him, because he always barks and gets excited when he'd hear the Doctor Who theme song. You smiled at me, then squealed when you figured out I was recording. I told you that you were beautiful, and you told me to shut up. Then you laughed at me and said you loved me. Most of the videos we took end like that. I used to be so awkward with people... but you've broken my shell."

I wanted to cry. I wanted to sit up and take him into my arms. Not being able to touch him was unbearable. I just wanted to feel his touch... to just-

"Jessica?"

My eyes were opening now, my hand holding Spencer's.

"S-Spencer?" I asked, my voice dry and hoarse.

"NURSE!" he shouted.

He looked back at me, squeezing my hand. He passed me a glass of water. I downed it quickly.

"Spence?" I asked again.

He nodded, swiping some tears off of my face.

"I would hate to make a joke right now... but did I miss the season right premiere of Doctor Who?" I asked.

Spencer laughed and kissed me as hard as he could.

"I love you," he whispered.

"I fucking love you."

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(A/N: Hey everyone! I have to tell you something important...

This story will probably have to end soon! D:

I hate to do this to all of you, but every thing must come to an end, right? I love you guys so much and I thank you all a bunch! I thought this chapter should end on a happier note than the last one. Kisses! xoxoxo)