Inside A Lover's Mind (Criminal Minds Fanfic)

Autumn Leaves

I sat with Spencer at the dog park, watching Fang run with the other dogs. Spencer was being awkward with me. I knew there was something on his mind.

"What is it?" I asked.

"W-what do you mean?" he replied, his face pink.

"You're acting weird. We need to discuss what has been happening this last month and a bit," I sighed carefully.

He sat their quietly a moment, looking at the warm coloured leaves floating to the ground. Watching him made me nervous, like he was a silent time bomb, just waiting to explode.

"You really hurt me, you know," he whispered.

"I know," I replied.

"And that guy you went out with a few times? I hated him."

"I know."

"Then why?"

I sighed, ruffling my hair.

"I was trying to get over you, kid. It was so hard. I had to stop crying all the time. We just weren't working anymore," I explained.

"You could have just came back," he whispered, "You didn't have to leave."

"I did, Spence. Even though I didn't want to, I had to leave," I replied.

I went to reach for his hand, but he pulled away.

"N-no you didn't, Jessica!" he exclaimed.

"Spencer-"

"No! You can't come back and hold me and tell me everything's going to be okay when it isn't. I can tell you've been cutting, you can't hide that from me," he snapped.

I went red, trying to reach for him again. He brushed me off.

"I've been tortured before, Jessica... but the pain you've put me through this last month has been so awful that I've thought about the drugs Tobias gave me and thought about the numbness it provided. I've thought about leaving the BAU and running away-"

"Stop it, Spencer," I begged, tears streaming down my puffy face.

He saw me crying, then let his head hang. He was crying slightly now, too.

"Promise me you'll stop," he croaked.

"I promise," I whispered.

I grabbed his face and kissed him, feeling at home. He pulled me nearer, our bodies as close as they could be on that park bench. Suddenly, I felt my phone buzzing. It was Derek. I pulled away.

"D-dad? What's wrong?" I asked.

"It's Garcia, baby. She's having the baby right now. Get your ass down the the hospital or you will never hear the end of it," he replied.

"O-okay. I'll be there soon!" I exclaimed, grabbing my purse.

I hung up and called Fang over, putting him on his leash.

"What is it?!" Spencer asked.

"Spence, Garcia's in labour! You can come, or you don't have to," I replied.

"So we're done talking?" he asked, his tone slightly bitter.

"For now. I'm about to become a big sister, Spence," I said excitedly.

I leaned over quickly an gave him a quick kiss. He was surprised, even though we were just kissing moments ago.

"I love you, okay? Are you coming?" I asked.

"S-sure. I'll come," he replied.

He followed behind me. We got all the way to the car before he grabbed my wrist. He turned me around. I smiled at him. He kissed me again, smiling against my lips.

"I thought you should know that I love you too."

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