;; one year later
In a world full of seven billion people, I used to feel alone. In a world of seven people, I never thought someone would hold me and tell me everything's okay. I remember a time where I was lost in the world; I couldn't even find myself.
Then, you came.
You helped me get back on my feet. You helped me become a happier person. You've stayed by my side, even when our adventures got rough.
Youngmin, thank you for helping me find out the truth of my sister's death.
At first, I couldn't think of the possibility of my sister being murdered, but you helped me find out Jieun's sister, Juhyeon. You helped me find out why my sister died and why Jieun did what she did.
I still can't believe that Seoyeon bullied someone. She was such a sweet person; she helped me through my darkest times. I can't believe she did something as bad as shove someone in their locker. She may have had a reason for it, but it still doesn't justifies her actions. And the same goes with Jieun. Just because she was bullied doesn't mean I forgive her. I guess killers just run in their family.
Juhyeon killed her best friend, over a boy, but Jieun killed out of pettiness.
Nonetheless, I want to thank you for being there for me. You've never left my side, not even when your life is in danger. You stuck right next to me, and I love you for that. If I was alone, I would've killed myself a lot sooner.
I'm sorry I had to leave you this way.
I love you so much; you make me happy. I love being with you, but I just can't handle this anymore. Have you ever had so much emotion bottled up that, one day, you just explode? Yeah, that's how I felt. All of this pain and sadness was just to hard to keep within me. I confide to you, but I still felt this pit of loneliness.
It wasn't your fault, it's mine for being so broken.
I'm sorry for leaving you. I know you'll be really hurt, but I want you to know that I was too broken to be fixed. I was just so broken that sometimes I don't even feel emotions. I'm too far gone into the pain. You mended my heart, but like a torn paper, there will always be a mark that reminds you it was once broken.
I don't want you to hold onto me when I'm gone. I want you to move on and find someone you love. Someone that isn't as broken as me. Maybe then you can be happily in love without too much worrying.
I'm sorry, but I've decided to join my sister.
Never forget that I love you.
I love you enough to let you go.
— Forever with you, Soyeon
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Hey guys, it's been awhile! This is unexpected, right?
Well, I hope you enjoyed this new chapter :)
There are a few things I want to say....
First: I love all the cute messages you've sent me since I've been inactive <3. I really enjoy reading all of your messages telling me that you love my writing and etc. Thank you for being so understanding with my leave and all; I really appreciate it.
It took me forever to find a good ending for this book. Again, I'm sorry that I had to even leave in the first place. I had so much planned for the plot to thicken, but I just never found the willpower to write it. I really hope that you all enjoyed the ending. Well, anyone that stayed (I know like half of my readers left).
When I first thought about announce my leave, I was really nervous because I was afraid you guys would get annoyed with me for leaving all my books unfinished, but you all have been super supportive and understanding. Things have been a little difficult for me and I just needed to leave Wattpad. If you guys are wondering, yes I am feeling better. Now moving onto my next topic.
Two: This does not mean I am coming back. I'm really sorry if I got some of your hopes up, but I just don't feel any spark or something whenever I write on Wattpad. It's hard to explain, but I prefer writing in my personal google drive where I can write freely and not have to worry about comments, judgments, deadlines, anything. I love writing freely, so I'm going to stick to it. I hope you all understand ^~^
Three: I have some exiting news!
I've been accepted into this writing competition!!!!
I'm really excited about it, and I'm a little nervous. I'm not going to mention what competition it is, but it's a big deal for someone in my school to get in. We haven't had someone get in since 2014, so I'm really nervous. I'm probably not going to win it, but one can hope >.<
Thank you all so much for reading this!!
I hope you all have an amazing day/evening ^.^
- Love, Jennie <3
