Goth Queen||Lil Peep

Chapter 16: Peep

Wednesday
October 9 2015
3:38 PM
Jaden's POV

I'm done with all of this. I've got so many cuts and scars. There is two ways to end it. Kill myself and I don't have to deal with my dad, the foster system, school. Or call the cops and risk him breaking out to kill me, have to stay with another foster family, deal with going to school after what happened. I'm gonna go with the first one. I'm at Gus's house and I have my blades. So I'll just do it here. It took thirty minutes for me to actually decide if I wanna do it. But the whole time I was in the washroom. Right when I put the blade in my skin there was a knock. I ignored it and slowly slit my wrist. I only got so far until the door broke down. It didn't do anything except for open a three inch cut.

"Jade!" He yelled.

"Peep. No." I whispered.

"Shit, shit, shit!" He yelled and grabbed some bandages to put on the cut. But before she did, he cleaned the blood and put Peroxide on it. Then he put the bandages on it. We went back into his room and contemplated what just happened. "Why?"

"My dad." I whispered, scared to be to loud.

"Jade, no. That's not-" He stopped and took out a bottle of tequila. "This isn't the option. What would I have done if I lost you?! Huh!? I would've killed myself! I hate myself and the only reason I'm still going on with this fucking game we call life is because of you. You saved me from ending it all! If it weren't for you, I'd be dead. You would've never met me. I would just be the random dead kid no one knew or cared about except for his mama!" He took a sip of the tequila and threw it in the ground out of anger causing glass to go one the ground along with the tequila.

"Peep, stop. Please calm down." I cried.

"No! I'm not gonna fucking calm down! If I didn't stop you right now, you would have been dead!" He started to lash out. I cried, knowing he was right.

"Peepers, just take me home. Please." I begged. The ride home was silent and played quiet music in the background. Might I mention was his music.

"We're here." He parked as I got out. "No kiss, huh?"

"Bye peepers. I love you." I kissed him and left.

"Where were you?" My dad asked.

"At the after school homework thing I go to everyday. It ended early today because the teacher had to leave." I said and threw my backpack down.

"What are you doing?"

"Getting food?" I gave him a confused look and took out some cheese its.

"No!" He yelled and snatched it from my hands causing it to get everywhere. "Don't think I didn't see you come home right now."

"I have no clue what you mean." I lied.

"Don't play dumb. I'm not stupid." He shook his head.

"Then why do you abuse me?" I asked not thinking about what I just said.

"Excuse me?!" He yelled and grabbed me by the neck. "You make me do it!"

"You're n-not my.... dad." I started to run out of air. He threw me into the glass door. It was a bullet proof glass so it didn't break. Just hit my face really hard to the point where my lip busted open and my nose started to bleed. Everything went blurry until I was able to process everything that just happened. I laid there helplessly as he walked over to me and grabbed me by the hair. He pulled me over to this corner and grabbed a knife. "Do it. End my suffering, please."

"Happily." He smiled. Then there was a knock. The glass was being covered by a curtain so we couldn't see who it was. "Don't move or make a sound! I'll kill you if you do."

"Help...." I whispered and continued to cry.

"Hello?" He answered the door and someone tackled him. It was Gus.

"Peep..." I cried.