Carnival✔

10

When Josh finally got enough motivation to move by himself the next day and when he seen himself in the mirror for the first time, he jumped. He hadnt realised he did so much damage to himself during his panic attack. No wonder his parents have been so worried and stuff.

He had went right back to his parents crying. After a few minutes of coaxing they got josh to tell them what happened which was only him having an attack without them, he told them he doesnt remember what happened after he went to his room or what had cause it in the first place.

Of course the two parents were concerned. They ended up shaving their sons head because he didnt like having the bald spots and because they didnt want him ripping out anymore hair if he were to panic again but now he was insecure about not having hair at all and wouldnt take off his beanie. They took him to the hospital later that day to get his scratches looked at.

The doctor disinfected all of them and bandaged them. He gave Josh's parents instructions on how to take proper care of them then josh was sent to see a psychologist. He listened to the adults talk for a good five minutes before he fell asleep.

He woke up when he was being carried out of the building. He looked up at his father as the man buckled him up in the backseat of the car. "Hey bud. You hungry?" The man asked. Josh nodded. "Okay were gonna go out to eat. That sound good?" His father asked. Josh nodded again. "Okay." His father said, kissing his forehead before shutting the door.

When Josh got home his father carried him inside and sat him on the couch. He was watching cartoon while his parents talked in his father's office. He heard a knock at the door and sighed, knowing his parents wouldnt hear because the office was at the back of the house.

He got up and answered the door, being met with Tylrr and bon bon. "Hi Josh... what happened? Why you got all those bandages?" Tyler asked. Josh looked st his feet but didnt give a response. Tyler pursed his lips. "... you wanna come out and play?" He asked. Josh shrugged. "Pretty pretty please?" Tyler begged.

Josh sighed. "Okay... one second." He said before going to tell his parents he was goin outside for a bit. When he came back outside Tyler smiled joyfully. He dragged josh over to sit in the grass. "Can we play patty cake?" Tyler asked, scooting forward so his knees touched Josh's. Josh only stared at him.

With no answer Tyler's shoulders slumped and he frowned. "...did you wanna play something different?" He asked. Josh shook his head, he didnt really want to play anything he was tired. Tyler stared st him for a moment, eyes wide with innocence and concern.

"Are you sad?" He asked. Josh didnt have time to respond before Tyler was speaking again. "I dont want you to be sad... how do-.. how do I make it better? D-did I do something to make you sad? I'm sorry. I didnt mean to - I- w-will bon bon help? Did you wanna hold bon bon?" Tyler rushed out, grabbing his stuffed toy and holding it out for Josh.

Josh slowly grabbed it, staring at it. "H-how do i make it better?" Tyler asked when Josh didnt cheer up. The boys eyes shone with tears and he was trembling slightly. He hated that his friend was upset. Josh didnt deserve to be upset.

"Why are you crying?" Josh asked. "Cause you're sad and I cant fix it. You're sad and Its my fault and I cant help. Im sorry I didnt mean to i-how- how do I fix it? I don't know how to fix it" Tyler sobbed. "Its not your fault." Josh said with a frown.

Tyler sniffled. "Its not?" He asked. "It's not." Josh replied. Tyler sniffled again. "Do you still wanna play patty cake?" Josh asked. Tyler nodded. "Okay then let's play patty cake." Josh said. Tyler smiled softly and then they started playing.

When Tyler's father got home he walked over and grabbed Tyler by the arm, pulling him to his feet and dragging him towards the house. "Daddy wait! What about bon bon!?" Tyler yelled. His father ignored him. Josh stood and grabbed the toy once Tyler was gone inside the house. He could hear Tyler screaming about wanting bon bon for a few seconds before everything fell silent.

It was so quiet then that Josh's ears ringed. He stood for a moment before going back to his house. He went to his room and sat bon bon on his bed, had give it back to Tyler the next time he sees him.