Carnival✔

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After the excitement of the two boys finally seeing each other again after so long passed they headed up to Josh's room. It was different then Tyler remembered. The window was covered by a big blanket that had been tacked to the wall, the bedsheets were all over the place instead of neatly tucked into the mattress as it usually was, clothes and trash covered most of the floor, the desk Josh usually did his homework on was stacked with papers.

Tyler looked around for a moment and he felt his chest tighten. He looked at Josh with concern. Josh cleared his throat and scratched the back of his neck anxiously. "I um... sorry its messy I-..  I should have cleaned before you got here but I started panicking and didnt get to.. um... I'll do it now you can um... you can sit here while I do." Josh said pointing at the computer chair.

Tyler glanced at it before looking back to Josh. "I-... are you okay?" He asked. Josh stared at him for a moment. "Yeah." he said, breaking eye contact and looking at his feet. "It doesn't look like you're okay." Tyler whispered.

Tears gathered in Josh's as and he sniffled softly making Tyler's eye widen. "No! No I'm sorry dont cry! Please dont- Josh I'm sorry I-what-I-i" tyler stammered. He didnt mean to make Josh cry, he didnt want Josh upset, he was just worried.

Josh shook his head and sat on the edge of his messy bed, aggressively wiping his tears away. "I'm sorry I didnt mean to start crying." He said shakily. Tyler stared st him for a second before carefully making his way over and sitting next to him, hugging him.

He kissed Josh's cheek softly before burying his face in Josh's neck. Josb had blushed at the action. "I'll help you clean okay?" Tyler asked softly. Josh nodded and thanked him quietly before both boys got up and started cleaning up the chaos that was Josh's room.

It took a while but eventually they got it all done and it looked all neat and tidy now. They both collapsed on the bed and stared at the ceiling. "Hey josh?" Tyler askdd after a moment. Josh hummed. "I really missed you... I thought you hated me and didnt want to talk to me anymore." Tyler said.

Josh looked at him. "I could never hate you ty." He said. Tyler rolled onto his side to look at Josh and josh sighed. "I didnt mean to make it seem like I hated you.... i just couldnt get myself to do it. My mind kept telling me something bad was going to happen and then my words wouldnt come out and I'd start crying and freaking out and then mom and dad would have to give me my medication and try to calm me down and it was constant... I'm sorry I couldnt get myself to talk to you.. I know it's stupid why I couldnt." Josh said.

Tyler shook his head. "S'not stupid Josh. I used to be like that... sometimes I'd get so scared my words got stuck and then-.... then shed get mad and-... " tyler trailed off staring off into space until Josh reached out and shook his arm making him jump a bit.

"Dont think about that." Josh said. "Sorry." Tyler whispered, wiping at his eyes because tears at gathered there from the memories. Josh pursed his lips and pulled Tyler closer to him so they could cuddle. "Josh?" Tyler whispered. Josh hummed. "I'm really tired." Tyler said. "Me too... wanna take a nap?" Josh asked. Tyler nodded and cuddled closer, shutting his eyes.

Later on when Josh's mom came upstairs to get them for supper she stopped in the doorway, surprised to see that Josh's room was practically spotless. The two boys cuddled so close together that you could even fit a peice of paper between them.

She smiled softly and walked over gently shaking them awake. "Come on boys suppers ready." She said. The two boys groggily looked up at her, sitting up and stretching before following her.

After supper they sat back in Josh's room playing with Josh's action figures while they sat on the floor. "H-hey josh?" Tyler asked suddenly. Josh looked up at him. "Um can I ask you a question?" Tyler asked. Josh nodded. "Um... do you uh... um.. wanna be my boyfriend?" Tyler asked quietly, cheeks tinted red.

Josh smiled softly and nodded again. "I'd love to." He said. Tyler smiled excitedly and cheered, crawling across the floor to hug Josh. Josh giggled and hugged him back. Tyler pulled back and smiled at him before pressing his lips to Josh's like they used to months ago when they hung out all the time.

When they pulled away the both of them were smiling. "I cant believe your my boyfriend now." Tyler said. "Well I am." Josh smiled. Tyler giggled and nodded before the two of them got back to playing with Josh's toys.