Carnival✔

26

(Slight smut warning for this chapter)

Tyler was quiet the next few days until it happened again. He had woken up in the middle of the night with it. He was still freaking out about it, it still scared the shit out of him. He sat on his bed, curled up in a ball trying not to cry for a while.

He still wanted to cut it off. his mind kept yelling at him to go do so. That way he wouldnt have to deal with it anymore. He forced himself to stay in his room though, knowing his moms were still up with their friends, playing cards at the table and he didnt want to disrupt them.

He sniffled softly and grabbed his phone, facetiming josh. Josh answered after a few moments, he was in bed too. "Hey." He whispered. "Hi." Tyler whispered back shakily. "Everything okay?" Josh asked. "No." Tyler croaked.

Josh frowned. "Why what's wrong?" He asked. "M'scared... but I cant tell you why." Tyler replied. ".. you can tell me I wont tell anyone else." Josh promised. "You'll make fun of me though." Tyler said. "I would never make fun of you." Josh said shifted to sit up.

Tyler chewed his lip for a moment. "I'm just- i-... I'm just scared and need you to distract me for a bit cause I might do something bad." He said. "What do you mean? Why are you scared" Josh asked. "I dont wanna say." Tyler whispered. "Okay." Josh replied.

Tyler was quiet for a few minutes. "Can I ask a question?" He asked. "Mhm." Josh nodded. "Does your.. does your pp ever go up?" He asked quietly, wanting to make sure dr. Ray and his moms werent lying to him. He needed to know that it happens to other people. "I-... is that why you're scared? Is uh... do you have a boner?" Josh asked.

"A what?" Tyler asked. "A boner um... like that's when your um.. your pp goes up." Josh said. "Oh." Tyler whispered. "Do you have one?" Josh asked. "Answer my question first." Tyler said. "I get them sometimes yeah." Josh replied. Tyler nodded.

"Is that why you're scared though? Do you have one?" Josh asked. "Is that stupid?" Tyler asked. "No... I guess I was scared when I firs got one too" josh said. "I-.. it's not my first one." Tyler said. "Oh... then why are you scared?" Josh asked. Tears filled Tyler's eyes again and he looked away from his phone screen.

"Hey dont cry it's okay. I'm trying to help." Josh said. Tyler sniffled. "It just scares me." He shrugged. Josh pursed his lips. ".. do you get scared when you get them? Or am I just stupid?" Tyler asked. "You're not stupid ty... and not anymore. My first one I got scared because I wasnt really expecting it but yeah not anymore." Josh shrugged.

"Oh.. what do you do when you get them?" Tyler asked. "I-... are you asking me how I masturbate?" Josh asked with furrowed eyebrows. "What?" Tyler asked. "Masturbate?" Josh asked. Tyler nodded. "What's that?" He asked. "Like when your touch yourself." Josh said.

Tyler only stared at him. "You've never touched yourself?" Josh asked. Tyler blushed slightly but shook his head. "I've accidentally like touched it.. like brushed agaisnt it without meaning to or something." He said. "You gotta try it it feels really good." Josh said, he was also blushing.

Tyler shook his head. "I dont want to. I dont want it to feel good." He said. "Why not?" Josh asked. Tyler shrugged. "I dont wanna hurt anyone." He whispered. "Hurt anyone?" Josh asked. "Yeah... yknow like... 'member how my father hurt me?" Tyler asked quietly with scared eyes.

Josh's eyes widened. "Oh." He whispered. Tyler sniffled. "That's why you're scared of it." Josh said. Tyler nodded. "Well... I dont think you'll hurt anyone ty. I've know you since we were seven... you havent hurt anyone yet... I dont think you could even hurt someone if you wanted to.. you're too soft and kind." Josh said.

Tyler shrugged. "Mom and mommy took me to see a therapist cause I um... I tried to cut it off and the therapist said the same thing..  he said I'm nothing like my dad." He said. "You tried to-... oh my god." Josh whispered.  "I got really scared and it just kept happening and each time I freaked out andi just didnt want it anymore... I still dont and that's why I called you cause i might've went and tried again." Tyler whispered.

Josh frowned. "I'm still really scared. I feel like I cant breathe." Tyler sniffled. "I get like that when I have panic attacks. You have to keep telling yourself to take deep breaths." Josh said. Tyler nodded and took a few deep breaths. When he calmed down a bit he sniffled again and wiped his cheeks.

"Are you-do you still have a boner?" Josh asked. Tyler nodded. "They take a while to give away... it hurts." He said. "Oh.. maybe try touching it... that's what I do to get mine to go away.. and it does feel really good I promise." Josh said. "Really?" Tylet asked doubtfully. Josh nodded. "I always touch it when I get them... they go away much quicker than if you dont touch it and it feels alot better" he said

"I-... I dont know what to do though." Tyler said. "Just like... wrap your hand around it and move." Josh shrugged. Tyler raised an eyebrow. "I'm confused.... can you show me?" Tyler asked. "I guess." Josh said glancing at his door to make sure it was closed.

"I-.. are you okay with um.. with seeing my penis?... cause I don't really know another way to show you." Josh said. "You want to show me your penis?" Tyler asked. Josh nodded. "I dunno... im scared to touch it.. what if i start freaking out? ." Tyler whispered. "Hey you dont gotta be scared I promise... I'll do it with you okay? That way you can watch what i do and just copy." Josh replied

"Okay " Tyler breathed. Josh flipped his camera around so it was on his crotch. "Ready?" He asked. Tyler bit his lip but nodded, watching as Josh pulled down his pj bottoms just enough for his penis to be visible. Josh was slightly aroused just from the thought that this was happening.

"Okay so just like wrap your hand around yourself.. like this." Josh said, demonstrating. Tyler watched biting his lip harder as he slipped his hand into his bottoms. He gasped slightly when he had copied Josh's actions. "Then you just.. move your hand... whatever feels good." Josh said, starting to jerk off slowly.

Tyler watched for a minute his grip tightening on himself when it twitched.  Slowly, hesitantly he followed along with Josh, moaning softly. He bit into his blanket. "Josh." He whimpered softly feeling the fear in his chest grow again. "Shh it's okay keep going." Josh whispered a little breathlessly.

Tyler whined, arching his back slightly. "M'scsred." He croaked. "Dont be. Its okay." Josh said, something about hearing Josh's voice calming Tyler. "Keep talking" tyler whimpered. "Hows it feel?" Josh asked recieving a soft moan from Tyler. Josh bit his lip trying to hold his moans in.

"Good." Tyler whimpered. "Mhm." Josh hummed. Tyler rolled onto his side his thighs pressed together as he continued to move his hand over himself. He was whimpering consistently. He was both scared but wanting more. His whimpers got a little louder. "Shh be a bit quieter." Josh whispered. Tyler whined his stomach muscles starting to tighten.

He moaned loudly burying his face in his pillows. He kept moving his hand though, because Josh hadnt stpped yet. He whimpered in overstimulation, his thighs clenched as his body tried to move away. When Josh finally stopped moving his hand there was white stuff and Tyler was confused, he looked down at himself and seen it there too and Josh then had to explain that it was normal and what it was and why it happened.