Surpassing myself

Shoutout to the literal personificafions of dysfunction.

I haven't given myself the right to occasionally express my anger and it's all unhealthily pent up now. These 'no name' shout outs are the result...

Shoutout to the fakes who didn't exactly change but showed me their true colours, of course at my expense and then continued on like normal as if I was obligated to tolerate it. Thanks for never actually asking how I feel and whenever I showed a hint of dismay, judged me right off the bat and made me feel uncomfortable, never just supporting me or letting me know you'd be there for me, which you never really were.

Shoutout to that family member who seems to love fucking pestering the shit out of me just to observe a reaction. The one who is selective and without genuine care, there for me when it's convenient and thinks me having anxiety and breakdowns is a form of over-sensitivity and sulking, using it as an excuse to then make me feel bad about not always being strong enough to feel great all the time and justify bad behaviour of their own.

Shoutout to that dumbass boy who thinks I'm so shallow I can't recognise when his ego has overtaken all commonsense and accumulated this messed up mind game, guilt tripping, extravaganza that I knew was there from the start and when I actually called you out on it, you without shame, only made another play. Thank you for thinking I was an easy target after all this time I spent trying to just be civil.

Shoutout to those lovely teachers and academic staff who think they own the place and walk around with their noses held so high they can't see the real crap going on even when you have people left, right and centre, virtually begging for help and assistance because in reality, no matter how much we act like it or we are depicted to be strong enough to deal with issues on our own, we can't always do that. Also fuck you for overlooking all of us students and might I add 'fellow-friggin-humans' who actually give a damn about studying but trip up every once in a while. Seriously what makes you think we're perfect? Newsflash, being academically involved and hardworking doesn't automatically make us suck ups so we won't just go along with every unrealistic and often ignorant  idea you have. You're so busy teaching lessons, you forget you're still learning yourself.

Shoutout to the media imbeciles, keyboard warriors, political correctness junkies and oh so much more for presenting us with views on how to ' treat everyone respectfully and give everyone equal rights" when you've gotten so far down the demented rabbit hole of ignorance that you've begun doing the exact opposite and now your negative outcomes outweigh the positive ones by far but your so far up your own rear ends to realise how many rights you're taking away from people. You forget how by only focusing on acting humanely in one demographic, you have neglected so many others and left them fending for themselves, which practically never ends well considering you've interpreted any retaliation as a sign of anarchy or rebellion but it's just a call for help.

Thanks a lot. Hope you're proud. I wonder  if you're aware of this or even care. Then again why would you if you didn't benefit from it? If there's no superficialities, you don't usually benefit from it and, yes, I guess that means then you're inclined not to give a damn then, right?