The Silhouette of a Girl

Chapter 17

     The months swept by like a dream and I savored every moment. We each sang various songs to each other and I performed some of my band songs in front of him. Eventually, we think that Cindy got the hint that Liam was taken and I had him completely, much to her dismay. As rumor had it, she was kicked off of the "popular chick cheerleader" club for not getting the last victim and failing to "someone with so much less." I never saw her near her old friends, so I cannot confirm if the rumors were true or not.

     I spent a lot of time with Liam, but I also hung out with Tootsie, too. A lot of the time, the three of us hung out with my wolves. They haven't really warmed up to Liam just yet, but they aren't trying to protect me from him, either. My dad hasn't just quite warmed up to me dating Liam, either. He gave Liam the "talk" when he came to pick me up for my second date since my mother didn't let my dad interfere at all before. I had to start reserving a few days per month just for my father, so he can still think of me as "his little girl." Everyone understands that my father just wants to spend time with his daughter every now and then, so there is absolutely no conflict with this.

     During New Year's Eve, we obviously invited Liam's family over. Once the clock hit midnight, sparks really did fly, well besides the ones from our younger siblings' celebratory sparklers. As the clock ticked by the last few months of his last Christmas break as a high school student, we spent just about every moment together. On the Saturday before the break ended, he called me to say that he needed to meet with me urgently. As I left my house, I felt the cold chill of the January afternoon and brought my jacket closer to me. I found him near the pond in the park that we went to on our first date. He looked as if he had been crying recently or was really upset. His eyes were red and face slightly puffy. He kept his arms crossed across his chest, but not from the cold. He was also clenching the pendant of a necklace that I gave him on one of our dates. It was a simple rose-gold and silver colored ring pendant with the words "love forever" written on it, and it matched the one I was currently wearing (picture).

     After he noticed me, he scrambled to motion me towards him and turned on his truck but didn't get in all the way. He turned on his radio and turned on a certain song. He motioned for me to wait and listen. I understood that he wanted me to listen to the song and watch him, to be there for him, so that is exactly what I did. He started to sing the lyrics to "Angel" by Aerosmith. "I'm alone, yeah, I don't know if I can face the night. I'm in tears and the cryin' that I do is for you. I want your love, Let's break the walls between us. Don't make it tough, I'll put away my pride. Enough's enough, I've suffered and I've seen the light." He kept looking at the ground while he sang, it was like he couldn't look me in the eyes, I was growing a bit more concerned. "Baby, you're my angel. Come and save me tonight. You're my angel. Come and make it alright." He took a glance in my direction, kind of warming up, but showing that this is only part of what I really need to listen to. "Don't know what I'm gonna do about this feeling inside. Yes, it's true, loneliness took me for a ride. Without your love, I'm nothing but a beggar. Without your love a dog without a bone. What can I do? I'm sleepin' in this bed alone." I notice that it's getting warmer, then he looked me in the eyes after he sang the chorus again and waited for this verse. "You're the reason I live, You're the reason I die. You're the reason I give When I break down and cry. Don't need no reason why. Baby, baby, baby/ You're my angel, Come and save me tonight. You're my angel. Yeah, come and make it alright. You're my angel, Come and save me tonight. You're my angel, Come and take me alright. Come and save me tonight. Come and save me tonight. Come and save me tonight. Come and save me tonight. Come and save me tonight." He had tears in his eyes again by this point. I went up to him and held him with all my might, almost as if to glue some sort of broken pieces that had unknowingly chipped away.

     He held me as close as he could and we just stayed in this position for a few minutes. After we finally part, I asked him what happened. "I just started to feel like I didn't deserve you and that lead to thoughts of you not wanting to be with me anymore and it just kind of broke me down, bit by bit until I couldn't handle it anymore without you," he said. I put my hands on his cheeks as I saw a few tears fall and wipe them away. After I heard this, I said, "If anything, I don't deserve you, Liam. You are one of the most amazing people that I know and one of the best people that I've been around. I will never leave you unless we screw up incredibly. I love you, Liam." His eyes kind of widened at my little rant and just held me closer. I didn't understand why HE felt like the one that was undeserving of us. He was one of the most miraculous people that I knew in this world, and that would never change. In fact, I also started feeling like I was not worthy of the title of being his girlfriend, accomplishing such little things that I thought of. "I'll be honest with you, Liam. I've also felt like this every now and then, but I always think of the little fact that you chose me over anyone in this school and you still want to be by me almost every chance you get. You went and took one of the most mediocre looking girls and made her feel like she was the most beautiful." I looked him straight in the eyes as I told him this, and he tried to look away but to no prevail with my hands still on his cheeks. "But, you are basically the best thing that has happened to me, I am afraid of believing it's so real..." he said in a slight whisper. The whole time, he kept his hands around my waist, not wanting to let me leave, showing he still needed me. "Guess I have to fix that, huh," I said as I pulled his face down to mine and kissed him.