Lies ‣‣ Soonhoon

3

Jihoon's POV

I will always make you smile

Lie number 3.

You used to make me smile. You used to be the reason to why I was happy. You used to be my happiness. You used to.

Now, you are the reason why I am sad and broken. You are the reason I am crying.

Flashback

I give up.

I'm in the rooftop, crying once again. I don't understand why everybody just hates me. Is it too hard to simply stay away from me if they don't like me? Why do they have to bully me? It's almost everyday that I cry, and I'm getting sick of it.

They won't stop bullying me, and I'm so tired of all their games. I hate being me. I hate how I always cry and how I easily get bullied. I hate being weak. I hate being looked down on. I hate myself.

I walked towards the edge of the rooftop and looked down. There was nobody down there. If I jumped, nobody would see. If I jumped, nobody would save me. And if nobody does, then it's actually great. Atleast no one could stop me now and I can finally go.

After wiping my tears away, I took a step forward. I gathered up some courage before I closed my eyes and decided to jump.

Instead of feeling the hard ground hit me, I felt someone hug me tight. I slowly opened my eyes to see who it was.

It was Soonyoung.

I couldn't exactly point out what emotion he was feeling. It was a mixture of sadness, worry, pain, and anger.

"What are you thinking?! Do you think suiciding is the answer to your problems? Are you out of your mind?!" Soonyoung said while looking intensely at me. He was slightly shaking me, as if he was trying to get me out of my trance.

"I-im s-sorry. I'm j-just so t-tired... I wanted t-to r-rest." I replied while tears started rolling down my cheeks.

"Do you think doing that is the best way? Didn't you think of me? What would I feel if you're gone huh?!?" He asked again, this time with a louder and a bit of hurt in his voice.

"I'm s-sorry," I said "I didn't have any reason to live. I didn't have anyone to make me smile and feel happy."

"What am I then? Do I not do those? Tell me! Do I not make you smile or happy?! Answer me?!!"

"You do."

"Then why did you do that?!!?"

I lowered my head and kept silent. I didn't want to answer him anymore.

I felt his arms pulling me into a hug again. It felt comforting and calming.

"Don't ever do that again, understand? I'd lose my mind if you do." He said, while resting his head on my shoulder.

"You still have a reason to live. You still have me. I'll always make you smile."

End of flashback

He said he'll always make me smile. He even said he can't bear losing me. I guess all those were lies, because now that he is without me, he seemed better.

Well, wherever you may be, I hope you're doing great; even if I'm miserable without you.

I was such a burden to you anyways, so I'm pretty sure you're doing just fine without me. Congrats, by the way. Congrats for being happy; and congrats because you finally got rid of the person you loathe: me.

Noteee
Another trash chapter yay

Hope my writing didn't suck :>