Lies ‣‣ Soonhoon

8

Jihoon's POV

I won't forget you

Lie number 8.

I think most people would say this, but again it's something that fades. It's a phrase that would at first be true but later on would be a lie; just like how Soonyoung said he won't forget me but in the end he did.

It's given that people would actually forget you, especially when uh,, people die? I'm not so sure okay but maybe people who passed away may have forgotten you. How would we know anyway.. That's just how I think it is..

With Soonyoung, it's a different case. He's alive; and he can't possibly forget me in an instant right?

The reason I am thinking about this was because of an incident that happened earlier.

Earlier...

I was walking on the streets at around 5pm. I didn't really have much time for myself recently so I thought of going for a walk.

I got my phone out and plugged in my earphones. I played a song- Moonlight angel- the one me and Soonyoung used to sing together. I resumed walking while lip syncing the song.

Time skip~

It was about 7pm already and I'm still outside, specifically the park near the river. I sat on the bench and stared at the sight in front of me. I could see the calm river and how the light of the moon reflects in the water. I moved my gaze to the other side of the river. No one was there like me to sit and stare at the river. There were only people who passed by quickly and couples being happy together. For a second I felt envious. I want to be just like that; I want to walk with someone and be genuinely happy.

It was dark and cold right now and it felt comfortable in a way. Even though I was feeling a little cold, I remained still and just stared at the sky after observing the river.

I missed this. I missed looking at the sky at night and seeing thousands of stars shining brightly. It felt so good to get back in doing this. I admired the stars from where I was, slightly hoping a wishing star passes by. If one does pass by, I would wish Soonyoung was here. I would wish for him to come back, and for things to be normal as what it used to be before.

And as if God heard me, I suddenly saw someone.

This person probably didn't recognize me, but I know to myself that the figure that's slowly approaching the park is Soonyoung.

I felt tensed and conflicted. After years of having no communication and not ending things the right way, I was finally seeing him again, and I felt very apprehensive about it.

I watched as he took steps closer to me. He was still oblivious to the fact that I was here.

He reached the benches here in the park and he opted to seat on the other bench that wasn't occupied.

I guess he wouldn't see me because I don't think he'll look at the bench I was in.

I just kept staring at him. I couldn't even believe my eyes because I didn't expect him to be here.

He suddenly looked up, to which I assume was to take a glance at the stars. I smiled; remembering how we used to do it together.

I didn't move my eyes from him and it was like my eyes were glued to only look at him. I didn't even notice that he finally looked at my side. I raised my eyes to look straight into his eyes. Looking in them made all the memories of us come back.

The moment our eyes met, I froze. I didn't know what the hell I was supposed to act like or do. I just stared at him and he stared back. No one among us broke our "staring contest". It was weird as fck.

I was just thinking about approaching him when he suddenly left. He left. Btch what? Why the heck would he walk out on me just like that? I watched as he walked away from me, just like how he did it during our college days. When I thought we'll finally be okay, that's when he proved me wrong again. I was too assuming. I knew something would happen and this walking out thing pains me once more.

It was as if he didn't know me. I was like nothing; or maybe I was invisible in his eyes. He easily walked out on me without uttering a single word, not even a "hi" or "jihoon". Maybe he did forget me.

He didn't have any sickness right? I mean it's quite impossible for him to have amnesia. I haven't heard of him in a long time but I'm pretty sure there's nothing wrong with him.

Wait, why do I care so much? Why do I think about this stuff? He had hurt me once, and I shouldn't get hurt twice by him again anymore.

Ugh forget it. I don't care if he forgot me or not. I really don't.

Noteee
Sooooo idk what this is again..
I don't write properly and I hate it ughhh but I hope ya'll understood :>