A FAN [Completed]

Chapter 30

Arthit POV

Its been 6 days since the day, Kongpob came to me and said, "P'Arthit, I think I should stop working here cause I have to focus on studying for a scholarship, that I have always wanted to get...for movie making and film directions.."

But before I could reply, he turned and walked away. He just walked out on me. He never bothered to explain futhur. He just left. No texts. No calls After that. He simply vanished into thin air. And every time I try to call him, his was phone is either
unreachable or left unanswered.

Why is he being so difficult all of a sudden? What did I do? Did I creep him out? Did he think I was being a freak to have tried to get close to him? I thought I had some hope. I thought it wouldn't hurt to hope. I believed I could stay beside him, even if it was being a friend. I thought he will realize someday.

Wait. What am I missing here? Where did I go wrong. I need to figure out and find him.

Arghh. I wish I had known his place. I should have visited at least once. I did not go to his dormitory because it will unnecessary questions to our woven lie. Wait. Is that it? Is he feeling guilty for lying? Does he think that I am gonna hate him because he lied? No. No. No. No. That shouldn't be it, cause it's totally out of place since he never once confessed his lie... Then why would he feel guilty now?

Shit man. I messed up! Ughhh! I should have just.........what should I have done? Should I have not lied? Should I have found another way to get close to him? Honestly I don't know why I spouted the 'Actor trainee' drama but... It did help me...didn't it? Or did it? I can't figure out any other scenario to keep him close to me. Now he isn't even answering my phone calls. He is outright ignoring me without any explanation.

He left leaving an unfilled void. Something that only he could fill in.

Why am I so stupid? Why do I not  fall for just anyone? What did I do to be wronged all the time? Why am I like this? Why am I the one hurting?
Why is he being..... Ugh!! Fuck it.

I am gonna find a way and confront him, as soon as possible.

I was drowning in my thoughts.. When I felt a tap on my shoulder, to which I turned and found Janeeyah eyeing me weirdly.

"P' Are you alright? Why do you look so distressed..? By the way... Where is P'Kong? Why have you hired a new PA?"

I looked at her  before biting my lips and opened my mouth to say, "I don't know... He isn't picking up my calls nor is he answering my messages... I don't know if I am alright... Ughh" I ranted out unable to keep my emotions on check.

"Well that's weird.... I mean what's up with him..? Is he guilty for having lied to you?.... Or did something happen without us knowing about it?" She said feigning curiousity.

I shrugged my shoulder and looked up at the ceiling.

"Janeeyah, honestly tell me, did you think that me and Kong would have worked? Do you think I should still chase him? Do you think that it would be worth the time? Do you think he will accept me? Talk honestly, not as friend but a normal person...?" I asked unwaveringly staring at the ceiling, as if that was my sudden interest..

She looked up too and slid her fingers into mine and smiled at the ceiling before saying," In all honesty, I am no one to judge about your guys' relationship... But Since you want me to be brutally honest, lemme tell you one thing. The questions you asked me can only be answered by you, except for the the last one..'Will he accept me?' Only he can answer that... But the answer depends on how much effort you put in, for it to be positive. P' you are beautiful is every aspect.... I am not saying this cause I am fond of you but because you truly are. So, have a bit of faith in yourself... Believe that you can make it happen... I don't think he can ever hate you. Have seen his eyes every time he looks at you? He looks like he is happiest man on earth. He looks like he has finally found the reason of his life... He looks like, you are only one he can see. You wouldn't know unless you see it from my point of view. I, once, almost offered him a  tissue to wipe his drool while he was staring at you while you were shooting.. " She  chuckled before looking at me through smiling eyes.