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Chapter 32

Kongpob POV

"Be my boyfriend."

My eyes widened at that. What? What does he mean? No. No. No
No. No. No. No. No. It can't be. It shouldn't be. There is no way he likes me. No way at all.

"Kong!! Are you listening?" He said shaking me, pulling me out of my trance.

I looked at him in and shock moved a bit away. He looked so heartbroken at that and gave me an understanding nod.

"P'.... What are you saying? Have you thought this through? " I asked cautious of not hurting his feelings,cause at the moment I wanted to scream hell YES to him but... If he finds out my lie... He is gonna be so disappointed. I wanted to shield my lies and and just go back being a  random commoner. He is gonna hate me once he hears what I have done to stay close to him due to my selfish needs. He won't even want to know me let alone being my boyfriend.

But Kong deep within, don't you want to be his lover, even after all your selfish deeds?

A voice inside my head said sarcastically while I just dismissed it.

"Kong... I have thought this through... For some while now.... I want to be with you... Nothing can ever stop me, If you agree... And if you are not ready yet, I am sorry to have forced my feelings on you all of a sudden... I had to do it today... Because I don't know when I will be to see you after today.. I am sorry, If I freaked you out... I am just.... I am crazy in love with you.." he said with the most sweetest voice I have ever heard.

I almost nodded automatically but I refrained from doing so. I can't reject him without a reason. He will be so hurt. And I don't wanna humiliate him when he mustered this much courage and asked me out.... And also I can't reject him when I know I feel the same. I can't have him seen in tears. He was already shaking in nervousness. He most probably would break down if I just say  a 'no' without any particular reason. He will misunderstand everything. I mean come one, there is not one flaw in this Angel and any sane human out there would be running a mile per minute to have him, if required. Maybe it's better to just break the truth to him. That way, he wouldn't be hurt and just disappointed and angry....for betraying him. He will also be happy to have not been fooled any further by a big fat liar.

"But P'... I.... I... Lied" I said with my head hung low, guilt creeping all over me.

He looked up from the ground with his red face being  evidence  that he was embarrassed to have left on confessing without a reply.

"About what? What did you lie?" he asked calmly, with Slight disappointment evident in his voice.

"please don't hate me after this P'.... P' you have know idea how much you mean to me.... I am crazy about  everything related to you... You are the small world where I find my peace... I am very huge fan of yours... In fact all my personal spaces are filled with your posters... I don't know if you remember but I have come to almost all your fan meetings held at Bangkok. I am that crazy. I have magazines stacked up, which has all your pictures.. Even the ones you never knew you existed... I am that crazy P'... Someone that crazy was once given an opportunity to maintain a friendship with you...... When I first saw in the library.... I was shocked and excited at the same time.... Everything out of place I did was to keep you with me..... Like getting an autograph for my friend when it was for me and taking you to amusement park..... Do you remember, you had said That I looked like an idol trainee and you would help me for that and I agreed too, just so that I could stick around for a bit more while around... I desperately wanted to be with you every waking moment... I was over the moon whenever I got to see you personally... I am sorry that I lied to you that I was an idol trainee... I am not that.... I am a first year Industrial Engineering student at SSU University... I am just a common guy who is gonna take over his father's business empire once I graduate and have enough experience... I am not an actor like you, if that's what you liked about me. I am so sorry P'... I never meant to hurt you... I just like you a lot..." I started to resume crying after saying that feeling extremely guilty for what I had done...