JK - The guy next door (chapters under editing, will appear soon!!)

Chapter 21

The need

I was afraid that if I yelled, he'd get scared and fall. I didn't have a choice. He didn't fall. It was like he knew I would be there. Why else would he have texted the group chat about this? If the person wants to be found and stopped, they tell someone. And in this case, it was his hyungs. But he knew Jimin or others would show it to me.

Despite his hyungs, I'm the only one who knows this place. After he brought me here, it felt safe for him to let go of the stress.

''Jungkook please...'' I begged as I slowly walked towards him. My heart was racing, and I was already tearing up by seeing him close to the edge, looking down.

Jimin managed to the roof and was as shocked as I was. But he kept quiet. He must think I can handle this. That too many voices in Jungkook's head would confuse him.

''Jungkook, please just come down from there and let's talk,'' I tried to say, but he just shook his head.

''No, you don't need me, you hate me. There is nothing for me here anymore,'' Jungkook said. And I could see he was crying. He wasn't breathing normally. He was hyperventilating.

''No, Jungkook. I don't hate you. I understand you now. I'm sorry for saying all those things to you. I didn't mean to, and it was wrong for me to say them without knowing the actual truth. I'm sorry for talking about your parents like that... I didn't know,'' I tried to say.

It seemed to work somehow because he didn't look down anymore. He looked at me. I reached my hand for him to take, but he hesitated to do so. ''Please, let me be a better person. I will help and care for you no matter what you have done,'' I said. ''This isn't the right way to solve a problem, please.''

Finally, Jungkook took my hand and came off from the edge. He immediately collapsed on my arms, crying. I wrapped my arms around him and tried to bring him back to the ground. I was shushing him and telling him it was okay. I could hear him whispering apologetic words to my neck while sniffing and gripping my shirt.

Jimin was standing next to us quietly. He didn't want to interfere. He thought you'd help him enough. He has never seen Jungkook like that. Not even when his parents died. All of them thought he'd break, but he didn't.

Maybe he did, but it wasn't in front of them. Jimin hoped this wasn't the first time he broke like that. It'd mean he has kept the pain inside of him for years.

I looked at Jimin, and he nodded before slowly leaving us there. I didn't dare to move. I tried to comfort him as much as I could. I kept telling him it was okay.

I took Jungkook to his apartment. I didn't feel like bringing him back to class or something. I stayed because I didn't want to leave him alone, not in this state. He might try it again.

I brought him to his room and laid him down. He was still really teary and shaking. As if he wasn't in this world at all. So that is also the reason why I didn't want to leave him alone. He might try to do it again. He needs someone close to him right now.

He didn't have anything against me putting him to bed. He allowed me to do everything. So I put his blanket over him and sat near him on the edge of the bed. I caressed his hair and cheeks. Soon enough, he started to fall asleep. It was my time to leave.

But I didn't want to leave. Jungkook would think I left him. That would have broken my promise for him. So I went to his living room and sat down on the couch. My phone rang soon after. I quickly answered it before it could wake Jungkook up.

''Hey Jimin''

''Hi, how is he?''

''He is sleeping. I calmed him down.''

'''Good. I told the guys about it because they were worried about him. We thought we should come over later today to ensure he is okay.''

''Yeah, maybe that's a good idea. Jungkook needs his friends. And I don't know if he wants me here once he wakes up and is out of his trance.''

''Don't be ridiculous. Of course. Jungkook needs you. You saw it yourself.''

''But I yelled at him, and it is all my fault.''

''Look Y/n. You didn't know. And try to understand him. All this dating is new for him. He has never been fully committed to a relationship. Sex, girls, and drinking were his escape from his feelings. Go slow with him and feel it. Give him time, and don't rush things.''

To be honest, Jimin was right. Every word he said was right. Now I get it myself. This all was just an escape from his feelings. Just like Jimin said.

He is scared of loving someone because he thinks the same will happen to her that happened to his parents. This means he must have been young when he lost them.

''We will stop by after school.''

''Okay, see you then.''

Jimin hung up, and I silenced my phone for a while. I walked to Jungkook's bedroom. But he wasn't sleeping anymore.

''Did I wake you up?'' I asked. He nodded.

''You were talking about me?'' He asked. I was dumbfounded for a second before I realized he must have heard my conversation with Jimin. Well, my words only, but still.

''Yes,'' I answered before I walked further to the room. ''You should sleep. You need to rest.''

''Sleep with me,'' He said.

''What?''

''Stay with me. I don't want to be alone,'' Jungkook said again. I sighed deeply, pitying him. But I didn't want to show it to him. I'm sure he doesn't need pity now or in the future. So I just nodded and walked to the other side of the bed.

He turned around to face me and lay down next to him. He scooted close to me, put his hand on my waist, and pulled me closer to him. He put his neck to the crook of mine.

He needs me, and now I know it.