Deep Breath | G.Dolan

Reunited And It Feels So Good

"Seven fucking months. I don't know how you survived," I told Ethan as I spoke to him over the phone. It was now seven months since I had seen any of them together. Grayson and Bryant each visited separately while on their break for about a week each. Ethan and Mike decided to go to LA instead to visit their girlfriends. Whatever bitches, I see how it is. I see.

 "Are you excited?" he asked.

"No, I'm dreading it. That's why I'm driving three hours to you and following your tour bus in my car for a week." I was a little sarcastic. Period problems.

"You need some Advil and a tampon." As you can tell, after a few months we've become more than comfortable around each other. Grayson is another story in itself. It's more like we're sexually frustrated 13 year olds. It's kind of an unspoken thing that we kind of like each other but we know we really can't do anything about it, so we just forget it exists but at the same time in the back of my head I'm constantly screaming I WANT TO FUCK YOU IN THE MOONLIGHT.

"I think you're right. I cried today watching a bird fly in front of my car. That's how you know." I could hear him laughing.

"Isn't it illegal to be talking on your cell and driving at the same time?"

"Isn't it illegal to be drinking underage Bryant?" I knew he was sippin' on something.

"Well that's just something I can't do." I heard a big chug. It's 10am.

HI CIARA!" I heard someone yell in the background and fight Bryant for the phone. It was Ethan and Mike.

"If you could bring me some apple juice on your way over, that would be fantastic. I'm really craving it. But in a box, not a bottle. Like the juice boxes," Ethan added. 

 "Okay, I'll be there in like 20 minutes if this GPS is right...which it never is. It just automatically brings me to the sketchiest parts of any town I'm trying to get to." They stopped listening to me and were laughing at each other's jokes, so I tried to get their attention. "And then I'm going to move to Mars and fuck all the aliens in space." Still not listening. "Oh my God, this man is trying to kill me!"

"Shh stop talking. Bryant is telling us a joke. You're ruining it," Ethan said. Okay then. See if you get your apple juice and help you little bitch.

About 27 minutes later I arrived in Philly at the venue they were playing at that day and parked my car in the lot. I walked to the doors and brought my purse, apple juice and pillow pet. I greeted their manager when I saw him and started talking before I remembered I had to give him money for the hotel in New York I would be staying at with them.

"Oh, I won't be needing that," he said with a smile on his face.

"Why not?"

"Your room's already been taken care of," he said and kept smiling. 'Twas a little creepy.

"I'm going to kill them," I said to myself but he heard it.

"Don't do that. I would have to kill you."

"I believe you," I said and walked past him and down the hall where he said they were. No matter what we do together they always insist on paying. I get it, they could afford it but I really hated when they paid. It kind of made it feel like I was using them. Which was an incredibly popular opinion on Twitter and Tumblr, which was another story in itself. Wow, there's a lot to catch up on.

To put it simply I was getting a lot of hate. That was in the first two or three months. The guys somehow found out and apparently Grayson got really upset by it and therefore went on a 4 tweet rampage about haters without directly mentioning me but everyone knew that was what it was about. Therefore sparking relationship rumours, which he still to this day has to deny in interviews.