Deep Breath | G.Dolan

The Event

"Fuck...fuck...fuck...fuck, shit, shit, fuck, ass, ass, you son of a bitch fuck."

"You wanna day it again? I didn't catch it the first time," Bryant said. We were playing on his Xbox and he was obviously winning. He took my controller away from me. "Maybe you should go back to studying."

"Maybe you should go back to being not being a little bitch because I'm better than you are," I said picking up my book.

It's been a week since the fight with Grayson, which means I haven't talked to, or seen him in a week. I've been living with Bryant and I go to school when he goes to do shoots and we come back at the same time and hang out all night. It's honestly like we're just friends and nothing more...until he attacks my face. Kayla is coming tomorrow morning for the event tomorrow night. Good let them have the house to themselves see if they get bored with each other. What? Who said that? I agreed to go to the network thing because fuck Grayson that's why.

I went on my computer and opened Tumblr. I saw a hilarious picture of Grayson when he was younger and laughed so hard I almost pissed myself. I took out my phone about to take a picture and send it to him before I realised we're not speaking. I do that a lot...there are at least 5 times a day that I want to text him something funny or tell him something or just like...hear his voice. Stop being a pussy.

"So, I'm uh...having people over in a little," Bryant said pausing his game. Oh shit, that's when you know it's serious.

"By people you mean..." He looked at me waiting for me to get it. "I'm going out," I said getting up and grabbing my purse. He grabbed my waist as I walked by him and sat me back down on the couch.

"You can't stay mad forever."

"The fuck I can...you wanna bet?" I'm not usually a grudge holder. I'm more of a find your weakness and torture you with it for the rest of your life kinda gal. It's cutesy.

"Your fight can not have been THAT bad." I still haven't told him what it was about. I don't want to create any problems between them.

"It was, and I'm leaving," I said getting up and going around the coffee table this time. I opened the door and Ethan was there with Emma. "Hey guys!" I said as they stepped in, "Bye guys." I was about to step out but I was stopped.

"Where are you going?" Emma asked. I haven't told her what happened yet.

"Well you know I'm not on such good terms with a certain someone so to avoid the awkwardness I'm gonna go out...somewhere. Maybe to the bridge, I can take a nice dive."

"Ethan what did you do?" she said and turned to him. He looked like a lost puppy.

"Its not me!" he said defending himself. "It was Grayson!"

 "What was me?" OH WELL SHIT THEN. FUCKING ETHAN HOLDING ME UP I COULD HAVE BEEN GONE. Grayson stepped into the doorway and looked at his brother and then saw me standing there and looked at me for a second "Hi."

"Hi," I said back. Everyone could tell how awkward it was and I wanted to jump down the elevator shaft. I can't imagine what kind of constipated face I was making.

"Didn't you say you had to be somewhere? I'm going to come with you. Come along now." Emma said taking my hand and dragging me through the door. BLESS YOU CHILD. We walked to the elevator and once we got to the ground floor we walked out of the building and just started to walk around the neighborhood. "So you want to tell me what all that was about?" she said smiling. So I told her the entire full and truthful story. Literally everything from the award show call to the moment that just happened. We had been out for an hour and a half already and were sitting in a café.