Bruises litter my body
Again
I cry out and the pain and brake
How did I get back here?
I locked my feelings away
In a box
A box of my own creation
Stronger than titanium
I sucked it up and smiled
I was...
Happy?
...
But then you
You came
I new what love came with
Exposure
Vulnerability
But I wasn't ready for the pain
You
You made me want to give you all of me
But what I didn't realise that in doing that
I gave you the key
I didn't want the box open
But you opened it
I didn't want to see it ever again
But you told me it was beautiful
I threw it
into the the deepest darkest hole I could find
A bottomless pit
And tried to forget
I made myself forget
It was just experience and nothing else
But here I am again
You opened the box
And I fell apart again
Are you happy?
with the mess I really am?
You say it's beautiful but...
There's pain in your eyes
And that hurts more than any of this could
I thought I was ready
Prepared
But I could never be prepared
For how much you cared about me
Love means sharing your hurt
And I'm still learning
I'm still learning to be vulnerable
I'm still learning to be exposed
I'm still learning to love
YOU ARE READING
The Dark Side
Poetry⚠️disclaimer⚠️these poems contain self harm and themes of depression and suicide Basically a bunch of poems that I pulled out of the top of my head. Most of them are really depressing so if you like that kind of poetry well your in the "write" place...
