When Love Bites

7 Hold On To Me

Chapter 7 Hold On To Me

I wrapped my arms around him as he pulled me close. "I won't let you go. Can we put a pin in this and sleep on it. I need you to hold me and we are both exhausted and I think sleep will do us good. Things might be clearer in the morning." I pulled back to find his eyes.

I felt weak and scared but she was right. I was completely exhausted both mentally and physically. "Okay. Bed together?" It was going to be another sleep in your pjs night.

I nodded. I picked up my cup and his and took them to the kitchen. I dumped the contents and rinsed them out. He had already locked up and shut off the lights and headed towards the bedroom. I made my way there and got ready to crawl into bed.

When she went to the kitchen I did my normal rounds and went to go and get ready for bed. I changed into my pjs, sent Marisa a message letting her know that I wouldn't be in and that I would need to reschedule so time if possible and put my phone away. I was sitting in bed leaning against the headboard with my eyes closed when I heard her come into the room.

He was already in bed. I went to the bathroom and washed my hands. I took my hair down and brushed it. I climbed into my side of the bed and sat next to him. I kissed him softly. I wasn't starting anything. Just connecting before sleeping.

"I love you. Goodnight." I gave her a soft kiss, touched her face and pressed my forehead briefly to hers. I kissed her forehead and snuggled down wondering if she'd put herself in my arms or if she was too upset with me to do that. It was always possible that I was too upset. I really didn't know. I felt a little numb.

"I love you too. Goodnight." I laid down and pulled the covers up. I scooted my body up against his and hoped he wrapped his arms around me. We had always overcome our difficulties. I hoped this was no different.

I found myself suddenly very angry but I wrapped myself around her to calm down. I needed her in my life. I had made a commitment to her and her alone. She held all my love and pain and anger. I squeezed my eyes shut and held on. I was dreading tomorrow and praying my hardest for a resolution that moved us forward rather than back.

I closed my eyes and let sleep take me. I had never been in this deep with anyone and I wasn't ready to throw it away. You fight for what you love, right? I had faith that we would get past this.

I slept horribly and woke up figuratively on the other side of the bed. I got up, turned off my alarm and went through my morning routine. I made breakfast and made her tea. I was hungry but did not feel like eating so I kept the meal light. I fidgeted while I waited for her to join me.

I got up but didn't shower. I took care of business and headed towards the kitchen. He was sitting at the table with my tea and two plates. I stood in the doorway and wiggled my fingers at him. "Hi."

"Morning. Breakfast?"

"Good morning. Yes please." I sat at the table. I felt like I was walking on eggshells. "What time do you have to leave for work?"

"I called in."

"Oh." That took me by surprise. He doesn't even call in sick. "You didn't have to do that."

"Yes, I did. This is too important."

I had no idea what to say. I couldn't read him either. I sipped my tea and took a bite of my scrambled eggs. I swallowed slowly. "Where do we start?"

"After breakfast. I want to eat. Then we sort it out and break it all down and see where we go together with it."

"Okay." I continued to eat my eggs. I got up to get a glass of juice. "Juice?"