One thing I can say for sure, school sucks.
Excuse my language but school is shit. That's the truth.
"Mind if I join?" I asked shyly one day at recess, a group of kids were about to play tag, they announced it quite loudly.
"We have enough people already," a black-haired girl said sadly, giving me a small sorry smile.
Bullshit, tag didn't have a limit of people. "Okay, sorry to bother," my tiny voice replied, I turned around and began walking away, wondering why I even tried to ask in the first place, if I didn't it could've spared me the embarrassment and pain in my chest.
"Cassidy, that's kinda mean," a boy whispered when I turned my back to leave.
"Whatever, no one wants to play with her, she probably can't even run." that girl replied, thinking that I couldn't hear, but fuck you Cassidy- because I can run faster than you're dad when he divorced your mom for a prostitute, yeah, the school knew of her situation at home.
School sucked when you have no friends, and that was my situation.
This was every day at school, only my first week here and people are already treating me like I'm invisible, like shit.
I told myself that I don't need friends, that they're just a bother.
"I don't need anyone, I don't need anyone~" I hummed to myself in no tune particular, plopping myself down on the swing set, not even swinging, but just sat there and staring at all the other kids having fun.
The slight sound of the mulch crunched in front of me, my eyes darted up and I see two girls, Jessica and Skylar, they weren't in my class but I see them in the cafeteria, they sit in the table across from mine, they would laugh and point at me occasionally. They were only making fun of me.
I can say that I hate them, Skylar especially because she was the 'leader'.
"Can you get off, I wanna use the swing," Skylar stated rather rudely, her dark hair with streaks of highlights was tied in a high ponytail, her hands rested on her hips. "Can you like, get off."
I didn't want to cause any trouble, not in my first week of school, not on my second chance. I got off and began to walk away, they weren't worth my time anyway. Also, no showing emotions, that can make people spot your weakness. I didn't need people like her finding my weakness.
I fisted my hands when I heard them sprout out my name and insults, their voices got quieter the more I walked away. If they knew who I really was, the monster that I'm trying to cover up, they wouldn't even glance at me.
I've already accepted that my time here at school is going to be hell, but maybe I deserve this. I deserve the dislike and negativity, I deserve punishment for all my sins, so I will let them keep punishing me for my mistakes.
After all, I've been through worse. This means nothing.
Not even the teachers really liked me, I'm guessing, they just pitied me because I was always alone. I'm always left out in group activities, last chosen for partner activities, sitting alone at lunch with no one to talk to, doing projects alone because no one would want to pair up with me, spending recess alone on the swings (or even just sitting on the benches).
But, I guess that this is all part of my punishment, I just have to endure it.
After all, it's just school that is a hell-hole, at home mom and dad treated with love, joy, and I couldn't wish for anymore. I only need mom and dad, I don't need any friends.
Even if I did have any friends, I'll only be putting their lives in danger.
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