Is It So Wrong To Be In Love? (Never Shout Never fan fiction)

Silver diamond blue eyes: Chapter eighteen

We all sat down for dinner, but I wasn't eating much. Chris and Jane were talking and laughing as usual, not including me in there conversation. I felt mad and that I was going to explode with frustration. I wanted to know more about him and Jane. And something about Jane was off, but I can't figure it out. I mashed up my food and piled it together, to make it look like I ate, then excused myself. For some reason, I hoped that Chris would be able to tell that I'm upset and come after me, but he didn't. I got my laptop, and typed in "Never Shout Never Jane". Is the song "Jane Doe" about Jane? But that's the song that I first heard by him...

My attention was captured when I saw the song "My Friend Jane" came up. I listened to it, and felt confused and like an idiot.  If I had looked further into his songs, then I would have realized that "Jane" was more than just any friend. I didn't want Jane staying with us any longer, and I didn't care what Chris says, I'm his girlfriend and he shouldn't let me feel like this.I rushed downstairs into the kitchen, Chris hardly even noticed me when I came up behind him.

"Oh hey um...D-Delilah." He said slowly. Did he seriously almost forget my name?! Oh no, me and him are having a talk.

"Chris, I think we need to talk privately." I said. Chris nodded his head and started walking upstairs. I looked back at Jane, and she flashed me a big, toothy smile. I rolled my eyes. We got to the bedroom and closed the door.

"So whatcha' need to talk about?" Chris asked.

"About Jane!" I said slightly loud.

"What about Jane?" He said almost in defense.

"Well for starters, you never told me that you and Jane were ever a couple! And you wrote her songs, and blah, blah! Why didn't you tell me? And honestly, I don't think it's appropriate for her to be staying her, since she's your ex."

"I didn't tell you that Jane and I used to have a thing, so that I could avoid this! Yes, I've written her songs, I've written other girls songs, but that doesn't mean I want them back. And she's my best friend, she can stay till it's time for her to leave."

"Ugh, but Chris you have to understand that I'm your girlfriend, and that sometimes we're going to have to give up things for each other."

"Wait, you're telling me to not be even friends with Jane? No! Jane is my best fucking friend, and I'm not changing that!" Chris said sounding furious.

"Fine stay friends, but she has to leave, like now!"

"No! She's staying till she has to go, and that's not going to change. And if you have a problem with that, then...fix it yourself. Go stay at a hotel for a few days, I don't care. Now I'm going to get finish dinner with Jane." He said walking out. Baffled, I sat on the table and started biting my nails.

Is he really choosing Jane over me? What does she have over him, and it can't possibly be only friendship. I didn't want to leave, but if I stay, then I'm going to feel out casted by my own boyfriend. And Jane probably knows about the argument, so she must think I'm a jerk. They made me feel like it's wrong for me to feel like this about Jane. I needed someone that would listen and understand where I'm coming from. I feel alone in this. I picked up my phone and started dialing Vic's number, but then stopped. I didn't want to bore him with my pedestrian problems, I also don't want Vic to think that I only go to him with my problems.

I sat back on the bed. Part of me almost wanted to go home, well my mom's house, but I'm not even sure if I'm welcomed there. Ugh, it sucks not having any friends. Oh wait! I do have a few friends! Quickly I dialed Andy's number.

"Hey Lilah! What's up? I miss you!" Andy said happily.

"I missed you too, Biersack! Actually I was wondering if I could go over and maybe spend the night? Things are kinda weird at my house with Chris, and so I should go somewhere else for the night. Pretty please?" I asked hopeful.