Is It So Wrong To Be In Love? (Never Shout Never fan fiction)

I don't want the world to see me: Chapter twenty-four

-3 months later-

 

"And I want you in my life. And I need you in my life. You can't see me, no, like I see you. I can't have you, no, like you have me. And I want you in my life. And I need you in my li-" I started singing, but stopped abruptly when I felt like I was on the verge of throwing up, so I sprinted to the restroom and kneeled over the toilet. Vic ran over, and held my hair back. After I finished, he handed me a bottle of water. I feel gross every time I throw up, which seems to happen regularly lately.

"You alright, baby? You've been sick a lot lately. Are you sure you don't want to doctor's office, just to make sure you're okay?" Vic asked worried.

"I'm sure it's nothing. I probably just have the stomach flu or something, it's no big deal." I said shrugging my shoulders. Slowly I stood up, but felt quite dizzy and nauseous. I really should go to the doctor's office, for at least a check-up, but I can't stand hospitals and doctors. They make me nervous. I went back to the couch to continue the song for Chris I've been working on. It's taking me a long time to write it, but I need to be perfect, it just has to be. I'm almost sure Stacy and Chris are bound to be a couple any moment now, I always hear about them hanging out, so I need to finish my song for Chris soon. I'm jealous about Stacy though, because someone like her gets to have his company, while I'm at home doing vlogs for my fans and working on my song for Chris. Luckily though, I do still have a wonderful amount of loyal fans. I'm really grateful for that, because I'd be devastated if my music career ended. And with Warped Tour happening just next month, I've been offered to go. And without a doubt, I accepted the offer, I'd even get to be performing on the main stage.

Unfortunately, I'm procrastinating on breaking up with Vic. But it's hard to when he's over at my apartment practically everyday. I do like spending time with him, but he's more like a friend to me. Hopefully Vic will realize soon that we're better of not being a couple. He has to be able to tell that I'm not in to him how I used to be. While I began to start song  writing again, I started feeling tired. I'm unusually tired all the time now, I'm usually not drowsy so often. Wait, I have nausea and fatigue, and morning sickness, I know that means something more than the stomach flu...

"Vic!" I called out.

"Yeah, babe?" Vic replied.

"I think we should go to the doctor's office. Now would be a good time." I said. He called our doctor to try and get an appointment for today and I started to get dressed.

-Chris's POV-

 

"Stacy! Come here!" I called out, after I'd just hung up the phone.

"Yeah?" Stacy asked coming into the room, holding a bowl of popcorn.

"Guess who's going to Warped Tour again this year?" I said giving an awkwardly big smile with my thumbs up.

"Ha ha, you're such a dork Chris. I knew you'd get offered to go to Warped, since you're a great artist." She said sitting next to me on the bed. I laughed a little, and playful nudged her.

Stacy has basically become my best friend within about just three months. She stays the night at my house all the time, we always go out to eat together, smoke cigarettes with each other, she gives me song advice. So pretty much everything. But not in a boyfriend-girlfriend way at all though. Stacy understands that I don't want a girlfriend, and I'm sure that she's not even interested in my like that anymore. But most importantly, she's helped me with my depression and getting over Delilah. I'm sure I'll never find anyone that I loved as much as Lilah, and that I'll probably never be with her again and I'm okay with that...sort of. I'll still always love her, despite that she doesn't feel the same.