After hours of thinking it over, Cas decided to break things off with Hannah. He realized he never really liked her, and was just using her to fill the empty void in his life. He couldn't take it anymore. So, he marched right up to Dean's door and didn't turn back.
"Dean fucking Winchester, you get out here right now!" He shouted as loud as he could. No answer. "DEAN!" Cas bursted through the door and made his way to Dean's room. "Cas! What are you doing? You can't just let yourself into my house!"
"Dean, what's going on? We've been friends for years and have never fought once. This isn't us, Dean. This isn't us."
"Cas, do you wanna hear the truth? Well, here it is. After we kissed, I was scared. Cas, I was so scared. I know we played it off like it was normal, but we both knew it wasn't. And I let it happen again, cause I thought you liked it and I just wanted to make you happy. But it wasn't right Cas. And to top it all off, I was jealous of Hannah. I didn't understand my feelings and I still don't."
Cas understand where Dean was coming from. They had both come from extremely religious families, and were raised on homophobia. If anyone had found out what they'd done, it wouldn't end well for them.
"Dean, I was scared too. I promise you it won't happen again, okay? We're just gonna forget about everything and start with a clean slate. For reals this time."
"Really? I think I'd like that."
"Perfect. Do you wanna spend the night tonight?"
"Cas, I don't think we should do that anymore." Cas could feel his heart breaking into two. "What, why not? I thought we were going back to how things used to be?"
"I just don't think it's appropriate. I'll see you tomorrow, okay?" Cas couldn't tell if things were better or worse.
...
They began talking at school again, which eased much of Cas's anxiety. But something felt different. They didn't feel like best friends anymore. That magic spark that had been there for so many years had vanished.
It was obvious Dean was distancing himself from Cas on purpose. They stopped hanging out outside of school, and Dean no longer drove Cas in the mornings. Everything Cas had feared seemed to be coming into play.
Mrs. Novak noticed this. "Hey, Cas. How come you and Dean don't hang out anymore? It's strange not seeing him around." He shrugged his shoulders. "I don't know."
"Cas, honey, I've been meaning to ask you this. Do you like Dean?" He felt his stomach drop and his cheeks heat up. "What? No. He's my best friend. I like girls, mom." Cas was ready to hear a long speech on how homosexuality disgusting and what not.
"Okay, calm down. It just always seemed like you two were something more than just friends. I was getting a little worried. You know how I feel about that." And there it was.
"Well, don't worry." He excuses himself from the table and ran up to his room as quickly as he could, where he cried for hours.
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forever bliss - destiel au
Fanfiction[completed] Cas and Dean had been best friends for as long as they could remember. Since they were next door neighbors, they did everything together. In fact, the were practically inseparable. The only reason Cas tried out for the football team, was...
