Memories - A Choni Love Story

Chapter 18

Cheryl's POV

I walked back downstairs. I calmly made my way over to Toni. She looked beautiful in those clothes, even if she didn't make an effort. She looked beautiful all of the time, no matter how she looked. I just wish I could tell her that. Maybe I will. Sometime soon. I was becoming hopeful once more.

"I'm back." I said as I took a seat again.

"So, do you remember transferring to Riverdale High?" I asked.

"Sort of."

"Well you and I talked...kind of. Well, I hated the serpents at the time, but you changed that. You made me understand the serpents. You made me realise they aren't bad, that they are normal people." I explained. I handed her the newspaper. I told her to keep it.

"Oh...and how did I do that?" She asked.

"You broke down my walls. You got to know the real me. You made me accept myself." I continued.

"How?"

"You talked to me. You watched love Simon with me. After the film, we went to Pop's. I felt comfortable to talk to you and share the real me. I expected you to walk away, like everyone else, but you didn't. You were the first person I came out to, other than my mother and you didn't make me feel ashamed." Going back over it was making me feel emotional. It made me think back to that time at Pop's.

"You're not loveless...You're not deviant, okay? You're...sensational."

"Well, you shouldn't be ashamed. I know how it feels to not be accepted because of your sexuality. It hurts, but I'm here for you. Always." Toni grabbed my hand. It gave me all of the feels. It felt like old times again. I looked into her eyes. I thought about how much I wanted to kiss her. Before I could stop myself, I was leaning in. Toni put her hand up.

"Cheryl...Now is not the time." She said. I then remembered the situation. I felt so bad. It was kind of awkward.

"Toni. I'm sorry. I didn't mean to-"

"No it's okay. I get it." Just then Toni turned to her phone. She started typing.

"Thanks for this but I should probably go. I text my grandad and asked if he could come pick me up. I don't want to be getting on your nerves for too long." Toni explained as she got up. I made sure she got to the car okay once her grandad arrived. I watched as they drove off, thinking of how awkward things were now because of me.

Toni's POV

I stared out of the car window. I had made things awkward. She was about to kiss me and I wanted to kiss back. So why didn't I? I don't know what's wrong with me. I clearly have feelings for her, so why didn't I kiss her back? I couldn't answer it myself. Maybe I was scared to ruin things. No. She tried to kiss me. My head was all over the place. Why do I keep rejecting her? Can't I just say yes?

I had given up on saying that I just loved her as a friend. It didn't work any more. I keep telling myself to just focus on my recovery. I should be getting the cast off soon.

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