dazed and confused - norenmin

seventeen

jaemin

finally renjun wriggled his way out of the hug and hurtled towards the water, shouting incoherently and waving his arms above his head.
jaemin watched him fondly as he danced in the waves,
noting the way the sea breeze ruffled the older boy's dark hair,
and how the sunlight sparkling on the ocean almost rivalled the beauty of the boy beside it.

jaemin turned back to look at jeno,
and immediately wished he hadn't.
whilst he had been preoccupied with admiring one of his crushes,
the other had taken the opportunity to remove his shirt,
revealing his golden skin and perfect muscles.

fuck.
who needs that many abs?

he drooled inwardly,
before getting his shit together.
this wasn't a big deal, he had seen jeno shirtless before,
and he didn't want to creep him out.
after all, they were just friends.
(jUsT FRiEndS)

shaking his head to clear his thoughts,
he realised that jeno was watching him, a small smile playing on his lips,
that in some circumstances might have been described as a smirk.
the older boy held up a bottle of sun-cream.

"can you help?"

he gestured towards his back,
then turned around expectantly.
jaemin gulped,
but took the sun-cream and squeezed some onto his hand.
Hesitantly, he touched jeno's shoulder, feeling the smooth skin already warmed by the sun.
He ran his fingers up and down jeno's back in gentle, circular motions,
watching the lotion swirl and sink out of sight.

he had already applied enough,
but his hands seemed to have a life of their own, and continued trailing across the older boy's back.
feeling emboldened, jaemin massaged jeno's shoulders,
applying pressure but careful not to cause pain.

heat rose to his face as jeno sighed appreciatively, and leant further into his touch.
as he did so he tripped and began to fall forwards, but jaemin caught him before he could hit the ground,
in the process spinning jeno around so that they were now face to face.
jaemin held him tightly in his arms, heart beating wildly at the sudden turn of events.
he stared into jeno's eyes,
momentarily distracted by the reflection of the shining waves,
before focusing on the emotion they were portraying.
there was a need there...a longing.

jaemin opened his mouth to speak,
to say something, anything,
but before a word could cross his lips jeno stepped closer.
jaemin lost the ability to speak, to think, to breathe.
he could only watch, lips still parted,
as jeno moved yet closer and rested his arms on the younger boy's shoulders.

there was a pause,
where both boys knew that any movement could alter their relationship forever.
jaemin knew, deep down,
he wanted jeno.
and suddenly it seemed like jeno might, somehow, want him too.
but even in this miraculous moment - a moment he had dreamed about for longer than he cared to admit,
even to himself - jaemin's heart still didn't feel complete.
he looked past jeno,
at the boy still playing with the sea,
and felt the same yearning.
jaemin knew then, that he would never be satisfied with just one of them.

he craved them both, their words, their touch. their love.

he rested his forehead against jeno's,
a feeling of euphoria overwhelming him at their closeness.
trying to articulate his thoughts,
jaemin let out a shaky breath and began to speak.