10 - 02 - 2019
If only I didn't love you. It hurts so much to know that I mean so little to you, yet you mean so much to me. We might not see eachother all that too often, but that doesn't mean you can't send me a message, see how I'm doing, right? I'm sick of always being the one sending the first message. I'm sick of always being the one to be over enthusiastic when I see you. I'm sick of it. We're suppose to be friends, but if that's too much, then please, tell me. If you actually don't even like me as a person then tell me. I will not bother you, if that's what you want. All you have to do is ask. Even if it'll hurt me.
13 - 04 - 2019
I love you so much it hurts. I love you so much I'm desperate for any attention from you. Just talk to me. Look at me.
23 - 06 - 2019
Do you even like me as a friend?
Why are you ignoring me?
It's killing me and you don't even know it. I just wish I didn't love you.
23 - 06 - 2019
What I would do, what I would kill to be by your side, to kiss you, to love you fully and passionately...
20 - 10 - 2019
The most painful Love is the one that creeps behind without you noticing. The one that is silent until it is too late. The one that never says it's coming until it's right there. Hard as rock. It doesn't go away easily. It hits you hard, like a truck. It confuses you ar first, but then you get used to it. Until it gets to much and then you become ruins. But it is still there by your side. Because it still thinks that there is a chance when there is none. It hopes for the best, but doesn't expect the worst. It should not hope at all. It destroys you yet you don't push it away.
I love you, and I don't know what to do about it. It is unrequited love - most definitely. But how is it suppose to go away?
22 - 12 - 2019
It has been 2 years and a half.
I am still in love with you.
You still don't know.
And it still pains me.
I still wish you loved me, even though I know it will never happen.
I still hope someday I will find the courage to tell you and you will still want to be my friend.
How can I move on?
How did I ever fall in love with a friend?
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I am SAD
Poesía"Learning I had Social Anxiety Disorder was hard and terrifying. Knowing I have depression too is killing me." __________________ Random stuff I write when no one is looking... I'm 20 and I have social anxiety disorder and depression...
