Cant You See To Me Your Dead. (Remembering Sunday Sequel)

I'll love you forever or find something better.

Alex's Pov

My eyes flew open to a darkness around me only small pockets of light surrounded me, the first thing I noticed was the pounding in my head, I tried to think back to the events of last night, last show of the tour I can remember closing with dear maria count me in and then nothing, the throbbing in my temple became unbearable my right hand flying upwards to cup it, a small movement against my right leg caused me to shoot upwards and bang my head on the top of the bunk, the pain in my head now getting 20 times worse. 

"BASTARDING FUCKER" The words shot out of my mouth and I felt the movement on my leg again this time becoming more jerked, my head shot to the side the first thing I noticed was the long bright red hair, the excitement bubbled in me, she was here Ella. 

"ELLA WAKE UP" I shook at her small delicate shoulders and slowly turned her over to me in the bed, her face becoming more visable with every inch, this wasent Ella infact I had no idea who this girl was, fuck ive done it again. 

She opened her eyes slowly and looked up at me a big smile spreading across her lips, she Lent forward to me on the bed and tried to kiss me, I pushed her away slightly the biggest disappointment rushing over me. 

"Lex whats the matter?" She blinked her makeup smuged eyes at me letting the quilt fall under her chest, obviously trying for round two. 

"Don't call me that name k?" I spat back at her, Ella called me lex nobody but Ella can all me lex. 

"Okay Im sorry is there any way I can make it up to you?" She raked her bright red nails up my chest almost making me want to vomit, looking at her hair again it was shoddily and fresh died, some blond remained in patches, I sighed audibly and climbed over her in the bunk, her expression perked up for a split second but she didn't expect me to get out. 

"You can leave now" I nodded at her and walked into the back of the bus picking up a pair of my random shorts sewn over a sofa in the back lounge, probably Zack's not that he would care, he always complained about seeing my balls. 

The girl slid out of the bunk and dragged on her dress from last night, tight silver and low cut, Ella would never have wore anything like that, she walked over to me with a big shocked expression on her face. 

"Alex baby?" She reached her hand up to my face but I rejected her. 

"Look last night was a mistake I thought you were someone else, now can you leave please?" I always tried to be honesty with these girls it wasn't the first time this has happened, I bring them all back, girls with red hair, girls who looked like her, girls who smelled like her, the closest Ive ever come was Jasey Rae, I promised her everything and then kicked her to the curb, I just couldn't do it  she was close but she wasn't Ella, nobody could replace her ever since then I believe in just being curt and sharp, I hate what Ive become but I'm never going to stop, ill love her forever. 

"I noticed you called me Ella the whole night, but im not her am I Alex because shes DEAD" The girl turned on her heel leaving me staring open mouthed after her, how the hell did she know about her being dead. 

"To think I died my fucking hair for this RED IS A STUPID COLOUR" The anger boiled over in me I just wanted her to leave to get out of my face, looking at my mistake was painful, she lead me on how does she know about Ella. 

"How the hell do you know about that?" She scoffed a little pulling out her phone and clicking a quick link, a tumbler pooped up with the name, the meaning of lullabies, on the screen was a translation of all the lyrics and year book photos and personal photos of Ella including one of me and her, one entry was recent showing paparazzi pictures with me and lots of red heads, the text was basically saying die your hair red and Alex Gaskarth will fuck you, I put both hands on the girls shoulders and pushed her to the front of the bus.