Cant You See To Me Your Dead. (Remembering Sunday Sequel)

How could this be done by such a smiling sweetheart

I cant beleive Zack does he know? He cant know.. my brain kept telling me it was impossible but I just felt it, Zack is a smart guy his silence means he has more time to observe everyhing and everyone, he knows and im fucked.

I was stood side stage with the guys, the crowd looked to be about 1000 kids, not bad for there first show this warped tour, after this I had to manage the merch selling at the tent, the boys were going through there warmups, Matt kept trying to get me to jump about with him but I couldent even brave a happy face right now, its like my whole world could be crashing down around me and I wont know untill they call the police and get me carted away for murder, of course they will im a killer, old feelings that I had put behind me started to resurface, my face visable dropped.

"Come on Abz whats up with you, youve been off all afternoon?" Josh was right I wasent my usual self everyone else was too drunk or pre-occupied to noice.

"My mind just keeps wandering.. Im just nervous for your show tonight if you suck or theres a problem or the sound cuts its kind of my fault, thats a lot of pressure" Josh's expression softened and he reached down to grab me by the hand, dragging me down the stage stairs and into one of the tents, nobody seemed to be behind here, everybody busy doing there jobs, we were alone, Josh pulled me into a hug and kept me close to him.

"Don't worry, we're gonna be fine, the show will be amazing, and so are you, best TM ever" I forced a smile pretended that I actually cared, sometimes I just wish he knew the real reason.

"Thanks Josh, sometimes I just get sidetracked and start to wonder if.." Josh brought his free hand up and placed a finger on my lips, shaking his head he moved in closer.

"You really need to stop over thinking things" Before his words had even registered he brought his face even lower towards mine, once again we were in the same place as the last two times, except now there was no Max to stop us, I decided to take Josh's advice I didn't over think it, I let his lips crash down on mine, after the initial shock I kissed back, our mouths working in unison, for that split second I forgot about everything other than his lips on mine, he broke the kiss pulling back for air, a big smile stretching across his face.

"Your supposed to be on stage like now" Josh and me laughed together, his hand finding mine and clutching it protectively, something changed in our friendship then, and I think I like it.

We walked the short distance back to the stage hand in hand, I let go of Josh's palm just as we reached the stage steps, Max looked like he waned to hit us, they had to cut take off your colours out of there set but it was still amazing, the crowd went wild and Josh almost did a stage dive, but I think he eyefucking from the creepy red head in the front row stopped him, I swear to god if there wasn't security she would have tackled him to the ground and probably raped him senseless, fangirls.

"I told you everything would be perfect" Josh slid down the stage stairs railing a big happy smirk on his face, he stopped just short of knocking me over and kissed me again, this time with more passion on fire, but still something was missing.

"I knew it" Max jumped up and down to the side of us, causing some of the crew and the rest of the guys to look in our direction, I rested my head in the grove of Josh's neck as Max fained being insulted.

"HOW COULD YOU!?!" Max looked towards me and shouted in pretend agony causing Dan to join in.

"I'm sorry Max but he's just better than you" I pretended to deliver the t, Max pushed me away from Josh with a sigh.

"Not you who're IM TALKING ABOUT MY JOSHY" Max jumped into Josh's arms and messily licked his cheek, everyone around stopped what they were doing and busted out into fits of happy laughter, It kind of disoriented me I guess that's why I didn't see him coming, until it was too late.