Cant You See To Me Your Dead. (Remembering Sunday Sequel)

We miss you, we're so sorry.

Ella's pov.

Tonight was the last night of the sinners never sleep tour, rob had actually left me in charge tonight, I had the entire weight of there headlining show at brixton academy on my shoulders, but funnily enough I was on it, I had everything set up in record time all staff organised and the catering menu done for the day, but they were the easy parts I still had one more thing to take care of, a 120 pound skin tag that went by the name Josh Franceschi, waking him up was harder than trying to wrangle a grass snake with some BBQ tongs, believe me I've tried, a sad pang erupted in my chest, me and Rian used to make a game out of it.

"Abbs could I get a copy of the revised set list ?" Dan's guitar tech Dan (coincidence huh?) shouted down the bus at me, I was sat sprawled out in the back lounge on my iPad reading emails and and making the call sheet, I put down my iPad on the back sofa and walked over to my folder pulling him out a freshly printed set list, he smiled at me brightly as I placed it in his outstretched hand.

"I love you as TM your almost better at this than your dad must have passed down his organised genes or something" Dan shrugged and shuffled from the bus leaving me staring after him, I almost laughed out loud, it has to be true my dad was evil and so am I.

I turned on my heel looking down at my feet, working with the boys meant I could finally dress like my old self today I had on bright red vans some light denim cut off shorts and a youmeatsix lonely star jumper eith the sleeves cut off, my hair was tied in a loose bun on my head and was now a sandy blonde colour, I took my eyes up from my shoes and danced back down the bus deciding to finish my work and then wake up Josh, a familiar noise filled my ears and I ran to the back of the bus.

"ALEX ?!?" I entered the back of the bus to Josh giving me a weird look from the top of my iPad, he was clad in only his boxers, normally drool would Be poring from my mouth but I could have sworn I heard Alex speak.

"what's your deal with All Time Low? You have it tatood on your hand you follow them on twitter Alex tweeted you?" I just shook my head like it was nothing.

"I've already told you I enjoy like one song and my tatoo is from the new found glory song" Josh shrugged his shoulders and did the talking mimic with this hand, I flipped him off and he started the video again, I was just about to leave the room when Alex's words floated to my ears.

"our drummer Rian has been taken to a hospital with a gunshot wound to the shoulder, there will be more news on his condition as it materialises, there were no other injury's thank you" Alex's words floated around in my head, I initially panicked RIAN HAS BEEN SHOT, I grabbed my IPad from Josh and watched the video from the beginning, Alex walked out of what looked like the venue of there first gig, news teams followed him with cameras and he issued his statement, a team of shooters got Rian, I could tell from Alex's face there was more than meets the eye, I needed answers now, I ran to my bunk drew the curtain and put in my headphones.

I just went with a simple All Time Low google, dosens of pictures popped up Alex looked so old now, so did Rian his teeth look insanely perfect without his braces, seeing them brought a smile to my lips, A few YouTube links appeared at the top of the page one catching my eye in particular, Alex Gaskarth sings lullabies and cries, I don't know why but I just had to click the video, YouTube flashed up to Alex sat on a large stage on a stool acoustic in his arms and a mic in his face the crowd the was dead silent and he spoke.

"I hope you guys don't mind if we keep it mellow for one more song, the last song of tonight" the crowd cheerd in aproval and Alex strummed a practice note on his guitar.

"I just want to say I wrote this song at a very emotional time in my teens, it was the second song I ever wrote and this is the first time I'm going to be playing it for you guys, because today marks a sad occasion, it's been two years today since I wrote this song, this is lullabies" I looked at the date the video was uploaded, 2 years and one day after I disappeared.

(lyrics belong to All Time Low but I've edited them slightly so they fit with my story line)

Make it a sweet, sweet goodbye

It could be for the last time and it's not right

"Don't let yourself get in over your head", she said

"Alone and far from home I'll find you"

Dead- like a candle you burnt out

Spill the wax over the spaces left in place of angry words

Scream to be heard, you needed more attention

Take the punches, the abuse and disappear

Sing me to sleep

I'll see you in my dreams

Waiting to say, "I miss you, I'm so sorry"

Forever's never seemed so long as when you're not around

It's like a piece of me is missing

I could have gone so far with you, but what's left now?

Don't you realize you showed this band a world of pain?

Can't you see this could have been a happy ending we let go?

Sing me to sleep

I'll see you in my dreams

Waiting to say, "I miss you, I'm so sorry"

Sing me to sleep

Sing me to sleep

Sing me to sleep

Sing me to sleep

Sing me to sleep

(He took so much with him)

I'll see you in my dreams

(But he left the nightmares with me)

Waiting to say, "I miss you, I'm so sorry

I'm sorry, I'm sorry"

Tears streamed down Alex's face as I finished the video, he tried to choke them back and look properly out to the crowd, Rian walked onto the stage and pulled Alex in for a hug before grabbing the mic, Alex was a mess, staring blankly to the audience his eyes never wavering, Rian started to address the silent crowd.

"a lot of you over the years have asked us in interviews and tweets what lullibies is about, it's a plea a final reaching out to someone long gone, long taken from us, someone we all loved dearly, this was Alex singing her to sleep, We miss you Ella were so sorry" The video cut off on the crowd cheering my name, I couldent think for a moment what did that's song mean, I googled the lyrics and read them more closely, the confirmed the suspicion in my mind, they think I'm dead?

I couldent process the thoughts in my mind I had to know, so I did it I straight out googled my name, my iPad sluggishly loaded up google for my results, the first few links were All Time Low related, but one In particular caught my eye, an archive of a page from the Baltimore herald, the headline read, Six Feet Under The Stars, a big picture of my father plastered across the front, his lawyers picture, I couldent resist reading the small front page article summary.

Local Baltimore 37 yearold father Adam Jacobs found dead today in his home along, with a suicide note claming to have murdered his now missing 17 year old daughter Ella Jacobs, local area sweeps have been preformed but no body was recovered, the only clue her father appears to have left is that she is now six feet under the stars---> story continues on page 40

They think I'm dead.

(DUM DUM DUM DUM !! Sorry wrote this on my iPad so I couldent use bold/italic/spellcheck anyways mm tired so I'm leaving this on a cliff hanger ! My first update of being 18 woo :)