Cant You See To Me Your Dead. (Remembering Sunday Sequel)

It's a vicious little word that we live in.

Alex's Pov.

I couldn't take It any longer I needed to get off this roof and back home, back to the comfort of my own bed and left alone with my own thoughts, so that's just what I did, and I didn't look back once, I ran down the hospital stairway right to the bottom floor and then out the emergency exit, I love the fans but right now I can't smile, home was only a short walk from here, 10-15 minutes at the most, the only thought running through my head at this point was why, why can't I accept that's Ella the DNA says it her, Rian believes its her, why don't I?

I practically headlong sprinted to the door and shoved my keys viciously in the lock, I kicked off my shoes and ran stairs to my room the only place I seem to have been lately, a week ago I thought Ella coming back would change everything, now I'm not so sure.

I sunk down on my bed and made a mad dash for my guitar, when I'm sad I sing, when I'm happy I sing, when I'm freaking hungry I sing, maybe playing can help me get some shit straight, I'm sick of people telling me I have a problem, when all I need is a hug.

My fingers lightly traced over the guitar strings until a song started to play out in my mind, I absentmindedly flicked on the dictorphone by my bed, you never know when your going to come up with something good, time to just let the music be my therapy.

My ship went down in a sea of sound 

When I woke up alone, I had everything 

A handful of moments, I wished I could change 

And a tongue like a nightmare that cut like a blade

In a city of fools, I was careful and cool 

But they tore me apart like a hurricane 

A handful of moments, I wished I could change 

But I was carried away

(I gasped In surprise where is this coming from, I sang the verses over again to myself quickly and decided to grab my lyric book and write them up, after I had them down I decided to carry on, I thought about everything about Ella, she was a walking travesty but she smiled at everything).

Give me a therapy, I'm a walking travesty 

But I'm smiling at everything 

Therapy, you were never a friend to me 

And you can keep all your misery

My lungs gave out as I faced the crowd 

I think that keeping this up could be dangerous 

I'm flesh and bone, I'm a rolling stone 

And the experts say I'm delirious

Give me a therapy, I'm a walking travesty 

But I'm smiling at everything 

Therapy, you were never a friend to me 

You can take back your misery

Arrogant boy 

Love yourself so no one has to 

They're better off without you 

(They're better off without you)

Arrogant boy 

'Cause a scene like you're supposed to 

They'll fall asleep without you 

You're lucky if your memory remains

(I added this part as an apology I remembered how I acted earlier how I behaved, how the girls face recoiled in terror, her eyes grew wide, she thought I was a monster.)