Cant You See To Me Your Dead. (Remembering Sunday Sequel)

Give us life again, because we just want to be whole.

I let the last empty tear roll down my cheek, sitting up in Rian's grip with a big smile on my face, I looked crazy, one minute I'm crying my heart out the next looking like the Cheshire cat on acid, to Rian's credit he just smiled along with me, drying up my tears with his sleeve. 

"Fuck him" Rian laughed, patting me on the head with an excited smile. 

"A-men" I nodded at Rian, slipping out of the bunk and standing in the isle, nobody ever knowing any different. 

"Not that I don't think this new found sense of fuck him is great but what changed your mind?" Rian questioned, motioning for me to follow him into the back lounge. 

"Its my life, how or who I chose to live it as has fuck all to do with him, so I say fuck him" I mused, pumping my fist giddily into the back lounge air, Rian laughing along with me. 

"I'm serious Ri, for once in my life there's nobody telling me what to do, I'm my own woman and I love it" Having my own mini break through I walked from the back lounge leaving a confused Rian sat behind me. 

"Matt Matt MATT Mathew, Matt, Matty, Matt" I called out flyzik's name trying to tare his attention away from the mac. 

"WHAT, WHAT YOUR WORSE THAN FUCKING JACK" Matt screamed at me, his eyebrows going wide as I collapsed in the booth next to him. 

"I'M NOT THAT BAD, you love me" Jack slid by the small hallway licking the inner part of Matt's ear making him retch and shoot us all dead eyes. 

"See hes worse I don't lick" Matt rolled his eyes and poked me in the arm signaling for me to speak. 

"Oh yeah... I was wondering if you would do me a favour?" Matt was intrigued now, sliding his mac to the side and tapping the table. 

"Depends what the favour is?" I Squealed knowing that meant he would help. 

"I want to sing" I proclaimed, slamming my hands down on the table like an excited child. 

"Okay, sing?" Matt replied causing me to roll my eyes and push him in the shoulder. 

"On stage, today.....and then like a little more permanently?" Matt nodded, his manager head rolling on. 

"Sure, I know line up is tight but there's always time to fit people in, I can talk to the organisers put in some favours, you sing establish some sort of fan base, maybe you could try like x-factor or the voice get your solo career going, what style, who would you compare yourself too?" Matt rambled on, typing things out on his laptop as he spoke already coming up with plans and ideas and all that kind of stuff, I took a deep breath tapping on the top of his monitor. 

"I want to start a band, like a real band, after I sing today I'm going to start the search for members, anyone who's interested to help me out" Matt nodded, smiling at me. 

"Leave the stage time to me, and Ill look into the band thing, If I can do it once" I stood up from the table and gave him a big hug, kissing his cheek and watching him blush. 

"Thank you Matt, your awesome" I whispered in his ear and bounced off down the bus in search of Alex. 

I found him sat in the back lounge with my ipad in his hands clearly reading what Josh had blogged about, he didn't even notice me until I sat down next to him confirming my suspicions. 

"Alex its fine seriously, I'm over it" I pointed out to him, rolling my eyes.

"Its just how dare he talk about her.. you like that its.. hes out of line" Alex jumped up from the couch tangling his words and walking out of the doorway.