˙oʇıɔǝʌɐnS ; Kyle Kuzma

• FOURTEEN •

A Month Later

My stylists had me trying on a bunch of stuff, we were looking at gowns on gowns on gowns. I got nominated for best new artist of year so it's a big deal, I had to be dressed to the nines. As I look out the window hearing everyone bicker about which one they liked the most I see a pregnant women pushing a stroller, what a lucky lady she had two. I exhale as my manager says "well Selena, which one did you like"

I shrug replying "they were all beautiful just no ball gowns and I'll be fine"

My stylist tells me "if Donatella Versace says gown, it's a gown"

I lightly laugh responding "oh of course"

He says "let's be honest, we didn't love any of them, we'll wait for more designs to come in"

I just nod changing into a black long sleeve bodysuit and a pair of biker shorts, as I sit on the ground tying vans with fire up the sides. My manager asks "you tired"

I nod replying "I'm gonna head to the hotel right now, I'm calling it a day if you need anything let me know"

He tells me "everything's handled we should be fine"

I respond "I'm sorry I'm just eager to get to Kyle, he's waiting in my hotel room and I can't wait"

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I unlock the suite to see his bags backpack on the couch I lightly smile walking into the master bedroom to hear the shower running, I say "Bebe, mi amor"

He opens the sliding door replying "babygirl, I'm almost done in here"

I nod telling him "it's fine I'm not going anywhere I'm done for today"

Kyle responds "five minutes mamas"

I sit on the carpet scrolling through some emails and he finally comes out in some joggers I open my arms as he smiles getting on the carpet with me , he pulls me into his lap as I wrap my arms around his neck he whispers "were feeling affectionate today"

I nod kissing his nose as he says "I like it"

I reply "stop, I miss you too"

Since the miscarriage I haven't been able to.......... bond with Kyle I know it gets to him, it's when we're most vulnerable to each other he needs that, I do too. He tells me "come on baby, tell me you love me"

I blush dragging my thumb across his cheek responding "mi amor, I love you"

Kyle smiles kissing me saying "I love you"

I exhale as he rubs my thigh asking "where is this coming from"?

I answer "your the love of my life you know that"

He replies "I know, your mine to Selena......it's just, you haven't let me touch you since.................I haven't even been able to hold you barely kiss you at times"

I nod knowing it was true Kyle continues "I miss you"

I tell him "I miss you too"

Kyle responds "I'm not even trying to push you into anything, we'll wait as long as you need to I just wanna know why the change"

I look at him saying "Kyle........I want a baby"

He replies "I know baby we tried"

I tell him "is it bad that I wanna start trying so soon"

Kyle looks at me shocked responding "I mean, I don't think so it's just Selena you were so sad, you've been sad"

I nod saying "with reason"

He replies "I know mamas but, I mean realize what your telling me you see why I'm confused right"

I understood why I went from distancing myself, don't get me wrong Kyle was still constantly with me just mentally and emotionally I'm gone at times, and now I'm asking him to try with me again. I tell him "I see them everywhere, I don't know if I'm just starting to notice or, I don't know but Kyle I want a baby please"

He exhales leaning his head on my shoulder I know I'm asking a lot of him he lost this baby too, I adjust then open my my leg as so that I'm straddling his waist. I start kissing all up his neck whispering "I want a baby, please give me a baby"

Kyle just squeezes my waist as I kiss his skin over and over again grinding my hips into his, he squeezes my butt responding "Selena wait, hold up"

I put my hand on the waistline of his pants saying "give me a baby bubba, please"

I stroke him with my hand feeling him getting hard as he replies "Selena I can't think straight like this, just give me a minute"

I tell him "what"?

He responds "with you grinding yourself on me like this, you know I can't think straight like this your so sexy It clouds my judgement, I'm hard , babygirl you know I've missed this don't, I can't think straight"

I ask "what do you mean"?

Kyle answers "I feel like it's too soon"

I stop sliding off of him groaning as he says "wait Selena come here"

I reply "when you asked me for a baby I said yes"

Kyle tells me "I want a baby I just think we should wait"

I respond "whatever Kyle"

I jump into bed as he hugs my waist kissing my side saying "don't get mad"

I reply "when I wasn't ready for a baby I heard you out and your just shutting me down"

Kyle tells me "give me a couple days"

I roll my eyes as he responds "you sprung this up fast"

I say "I saw a pregnant women pushing a stroller Kyle I got jealous, not only one but she had two, I want a baby"

He exhales replying "just a couple of days okay"

I look at him as he just smiles leaning over kissing me I give in telling him "okay"

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What y'all think, wait, to soon, keep trying?