Marauders x reader

James x reader

Warnings: self doubt/hate, unrequited love, angst, hurt, talks of self harm, fluff, a happy ending.

Me and my best friend Lilly Evans where walking into the common room.

We walk in and find my twin brother Sirius and the rest of the marauders sitting near the fire. Sirius looks up and sees me and yells "Oi there's my little sis! Where have you been off?"

I quickly walk over so he wouldn't wake everyone up. "I've been walking around with Lilly." I say calmly. At the mention of Lily James looks up.

He's fancied her forever. And sadly I fancy him. It brakes my heart every time he asks her out. I mean why wouldn't he though? She's beautiful, smart, amazing, funny , caring, sweet, badass. And I'm just.... me.

But ether way we are still good friends. Remus and I are the closest then James. Me and peter have never gotten along quite frankly I don't trust him and I hate him. And Sirius doesn't count because he's my twin.

James gets up and walked up to lily. Undoubtedly asking her out again. I sigh and look down, frowning at the ground.
"I- I think I'm just gonna go to bed." I kiss Sirius on the cheek and hug him whispering "Night Siri I love you." He whispered I love you back and I rush up the stairs not noticing Remus coming up after me.

I walk into my room and close the door. I share a room with Lily because all the other girls in our year where expelled for some reason. But since she's down stairs I'm alone.

I start to cry thinking of James and Lily together. I walk over to the full length mirror and look at myself in the mirror. "You're so ugly, how could anyone ever love you."

Remus has cracked the door open and was about to walk on when he heard me talking to myself. He decided to listen to what I was saying instead.

"He loves Her not you. I mean look at you..... your fat and your hair is frizzy...,. Your eyes aren't big and bright..... your smile is dumb..... your face is ugly.... all of you is ugly..... ALL of you." I say to myself.

Just then Remus fully walks into the room. He looks sad and I only notice him when he walked in the door. "Remus? What are you doing in here?" He said nothing just walked up to me and pulled me into a hug.

I began to cry knowing he had heard me. He didn't say anything just walked me over to the bed put me on his lap and held me. I buried my head on the crook of his neck and cried while he whispered comforting things in my ear.

After a while we where just siting there and he was drawing patterns on my back. He was about to speak when Lilly came in.

"Y/n you need to tell James.... now!" She didn't even question how I was sitting with Rem she knew how close we where.

"Tell him what?" Remus asked. Wondering if maybe the discussion him and Sirius just had was true.

Remus p.o.v flashback to convo with Sirius

"Hey mate is y/n okay?" I asked Sirius.

"No. I.... I think she likes James. Hear me out before you question my sanity." He replied. I waited

"Every time he goes to ask out Evans she gets sad. Like every time. And it's not because she's gay and likes Lily.... I've ruled that out because whenever Lilly is asked out by some other guy she's fine." Sirius presented his evidence.

"Honestly I was thinking the same thing. I think I'm gonna go comfort her."

Sirius p.o.v after Remus leaves