Marauders x reader

Remus x reader

Warnings: talks of death, hate, guilt, violence?injury, panic attack/anxiety attack and nightmares. Eventual fluff

"It's all your fault y/n! If it weren't for you Lilly and James would still be alive! I can't believe we where ever friends! Don't ever talk to me again!" Sirius shouted at me.

It was he early morning of the day after Halloween and James and Lilly Potter, two of my best friends, where just killed the night before.

"We trusted you!" Remus shouted at me, "You where are friend! And you sold them out to Voldemort! James let you into his home! He made you Harry's Godmother and you betrayed them! I hate you! Don't ever talk to me again! Don't talk to any of us again!"

With that Sirius and Remus ran off to find Peter. ''The true rat here is Peter. He was the one who told. But...

They're right it's all my fault. I was there second secret keeper. Sirius was the first but he was afraid the death eaters had found him. So we switched to me.

I had the same fear as Sirius so I asked for Peter to take my place.

Only Peter James and Lilly and I knew. I hadn't had time to tell the rest of the marauders...'I said to myself ''it's all my fault.... it's all my fault.... it's all my fault''

Suddenly I was being shaken "Wake up y/n! Wake up!"

Suddenly I shot up and screamed "ITS ALL MY FAULT!" I felt a gentle had on my shoulder and looked over to see "Professor Dumbledoor?"

He gave me a kind gentle smile. "Y/n do you remember where you are?" I looked around. It appeared I was in the hospital wing at school.

''How did I get here?'' I asked

"One night Hagrid found you. Said you where crying and muttering to yourself 'it's all my fault'. He said it looked like you hadn't slept soundly since before Halloween night. Hagrid sat you in his cabin and quickly sent for Myself and Madam Pomfrey.

When we arrived you where shaking and crying. You where bruised and bloody. You told us you had been wondering for a month. Avoiding death eaters and trying to find a safe place.

Somehow you got the strength to aparate to the train station and then you began walking through the forest.

Hagrid was doing his rounds making sure everything was prepared for the new students arrival and that's when he found you.

You've been in a self induced coma for three months now. Madam Pomfrey says you where in shock so your body shut down to protect your mind.

When you finally started thrashing around and screaming we decided it was time to wake you...... my dear I know you've been threw a lot. I would like to offer you a job... here at Hogwarts. We need a teacher to help teach Quidditch. And seeing as you where one of the best Chasers in Hogwarts history I figured I would offer you the job."

I looked at dumbledoor shocked "but I- I...Professor you dot understand. It's my fault James and Lilly are dead. If I didn't ask Peter to become the secret keeper instead of me they'd be alive!"

I began to cry one again. Professor McGonaglall (sorry if that's wrong) pulled me into a hug "oh dear it is not your fault. And you don't have to take the job. You can still stay here. Hogwarts will always be here for you."

I nodded my head "thank you Professor for the job offer but I think right now I need to heal."

Dumbledoor nodded and stood up "Minivera if you don't mind showing Miss y/n here to her new room. And y/n,"  he looked over to me. "Do not hesitate to ask for anything." I nodded and he walked away.